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[Popeye]

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I'm getting there slowly.
I'll make it though.

[kaponium]

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That's the one, good things take time. Ten miles to walk in to the bush, ten miles to get back. I have been on the recovery path, tripping over and getting back up for many, many years...the main thing is GETTING BACK UP again.

[una mas]

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hi ova!!
i'm new on here too and found my way to this site sort of like you did!!.. think i typed in "help i can't cope anymore " that's the state i was in too, a bit like you!!
just didn't have a clue what to do about my drinking but to be honest i was sitting with a beer on Saturday worrying about all my problems and it just hit me like a London bus... maybe at least 2 thirds of my "problems" are alcohol related... my alcohol problem.... aaaah!! the dawning of the light!!!
i also haven't told anyone yet- was determined to get a head start first... due to AL (and other bloody life stuff!) my self esteem is very low and i kept thinking that people would bang on about how awful i have behaved in the past blah blah and i would just run straight back to the vodka bottle..AL of choice for me!! and i also was paranoid that people would be thinking or even saying to my face 'well how long will this last then?"... really couldn't deal with any negativity to be honest!!!
so here i am starting day 5 AF.. on my own, no book, no supplements, no drugs, but have the wonderful support here- which has been a god send to me!!!
want to read the book but need to involve outside help as my credit card broke years ago (!!) .. a few more days when i feel much stronger in my mind, and physically i will have to tell someone!! (but only if they have a credit card that works!!! ha ha!!)
Why i'm telling you all this is to say STAY ON THIS SITE!! the people are really helpful, knowledgable, supportive and understand EXACTLY what we're going through.. not through some vague idea of what it's like through some chat show or something!!!
welcome!! us newbies stick together and we CAN do it!! yaaaaayy!!!
ps is napier south island?... spent 4 months in NZ many years ago...happy memories!!!!

[una mas]

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by the way... just thought (as i'm sort of in the same head space of "don't want people to know at the mo") there's been some good ideas on here about why, when you're out, you don't want an alcoholic drink... one was to say you have an upset tummy/tummy bug and AL will make you sick, another was i'm on antibiotics and i want them to work, and another i read somewhere was something to do with becoming diabetic and you have to avoid alcohol at all costs until your tests have been sorted out- that could take a period of time of your choice, if you decide to try moderating later on...only thing with that one is i bet i meet some bloody doctor or diabetic who will get you into some sort of technical conversation.. think that one requires homework.. but you could potentially have really different conversations to the norm...ha ha ha ha!!!! just some ideas i've been exploring.. yet to put into action.. keep ya posted!!

[kaponium]

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Welcome unamas! Great to read your post - you sound sooo positive. Look forward to hearing more from you. Life is a journey, one day at a time. Sobriety is a bloody miracle for this alkie! Where you hail from? I'm in the South Island, NZ - Beautiful land :0

[kaponium]

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I always find the best answer when offered a drink is just ..."no, thanks" - I don't say "I don't drink/am problem drinker", or anything, and if anyone has a problem with that - well - that's their shit!

[Captnjack]

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Kappy Great advice !!!!!! the festering season is upon us every nook and cranny is saying you have to drink !!!!! Kappys simple words NO THANKS work for me if you get the repeat OH come on its christmas just have one~~~~ a constant repeat of NO THANKS eventually works but the drunks are the hardest a repeating constant loop tape saying NO THANK YOU may work.
Great advice Kaps

[Enumi]

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Hi,
I think that feeling of guilt should enable you through the next day - free from the stuff

[lil.michelle]

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Hi sweety
Welcome. First, you're far from alone. The shame you feel will go away after a few days. If you want to stop to drinking the first thing to do is get rid of ALL the drink in the house, have you done this already? Maybe order some supplements as well. Just keep posting, whether it's good, Great, ugly, bad... no matter what. Come to us. We're ALL in the same boat!!!

[Angelcakes]

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Hi ova & welcome!! I look forward to getting to know you more. I'm out of the early 90's party scene also...I'm 36 now and really think I should know better sometimes!!! But with the help of the people here I'm already at a much better place than I was, and always moving forward. I'm in Auckland, I hear Napier's beautiful...
Angel xo

[Evie.Lou]

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I promise you that you have found a SAFE place to land.Welcome !!!!

[Angelcakes]

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Hi also to you Enumi, why don't you tell us a bit about yourself & how you came to be here??
Angel xo

PS 'A place to land' - I love that Evie!!

[Pikalili]

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Hey Kiwi's
Is there a NZ doctor who prescribes topamax? I just got my import seized at the border.

[dlw]

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Welcome to you. We are here as a group of friends, with no one judging us but ourselves
I am a member since 10-10 when I also hit rock bottom. I think when you hit the bottom, there is no where to go but UP.
Keep close to the posts at MWO - and use us as your crutch for your future AF days ahead- the road might be bumpy for a while, but there is nothing but happiness at the end of the tunnel

[boozehag]

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Picalili
I dont know if you can get topomax prescribed in NZ for AL. Kaponium - might know as she is starting Naltrexone today you could pm her. That is such a shame yours was stopped in customs you must be very pissed off. I used champix instead as I couldnt figure out how to get any of the other drugs which I would gladly have taken if I could have got them.
BH