AF December - Monday, December 1

[Nakeeta]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Hello Everyone, Just wanted to check in and let all my friends here know I did it. Today is 30 days AF for Me. I'm really happy with myself. I've been keeping myself busy reading. But to be honest some days just being mad and hateful with the world. The days seem so long at times. I do sleep a lot more now. Very Happy to See all of you here.

[LookingToGrow]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Hi Nakeeta! Long time, no see :h What are your plans for going forward?
Excellent job on 30 days :lilangel:

[Nakeeta]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Just trying not to dig to deep into the past. I cant change any thing and that seems to put me back were I don't want to be. I need to keep moving forward. Life keeps moving and that's what I need to do!

[cyclefan]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Hi Nakeeta you are my new hero! I am 17 days now.

[LookingToGrow]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Cyclefan, great job on 17 days! :lilangel:
How are you feeling?

[Nakeeta]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Congrats Cyc. You just keep going and you will be at day 30 AF.

[Nakeeta]

AF December - Monday, December 1

It really helps me to come here. Some days I just come and read. You don't always have to say anything.

[motoxgal]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Nakeeta - GREAT JOB!!! Can't wait to reach that. 4 days is my longest AF time. I DO want to start Dec. AF. Today would be day two. Stopped by the cops the other night after going to pick up some more beer for a party we were having at 1AM. (stopped in front of my house for not using a blinker to park my car!) Good thing I hadn't drank for a couple hours before that! Passed the field tests, but scared the SHIT out of me. Wow, that's all I would need! I'm gonna start taking my antabuse regularly, was trying to use it for 'moderation', but the side affects of the burning red face is embarrassing and oh so noticeable. Keep posting everyday everyone on the December progress... Good luck to all!!!

[LookingToGrow]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Hi Motoxgal! We want you to post everyday too :h

[Nakeeta]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Thank you Moto, You be careful. I know you can do this. Everyone says December is hard but we must remember it is just another month that will come and go. Just another holiday. Just another celebration. We can handle it better with out alcohol. We can remember them with out the alcohol and not just people remembering us because of the alcohol. It might seem hard but when you do look back in January we will all be so very proud of each other. So lets all hang on to each other and do this together.

[motoxgal]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Nakeeta, thanks for the reply. Seems like day 4 was as far as I got last time and I was so proud of myself, but crumbled - I didn't realize that many experience such anxiety at day 4. Now I have a plan to 'plan' something else to do that day to make it through to take the edge off a little. So glad we have MWO. Wouldn't know what to do without us all giving each other a group hug here!

[Nakeeta]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Were do u usually post at? What thread?

[keepwalking]

AF December - Monday, December 1

wow i am so pleased with response to this thread! our daily countdown to the holidays! i
am opening a window every day til christmas day, a window of sobriety! WIP thanks for sharing your story for all of us, it gives us strength. Stay strong everyone, this will definately be a December to remember for all the right reasons. life is so precious lets live it, steady it may be but thats better than guilt, misery and phsical pain! When i used to overdo the whte wine the next day my brain used to feel like it was swimming in wine, i could imagine my brain in a lab suspended in liquid in a clear glass jar but it wasnt a clear healthy liquid it was yellow coloured vile white wine with bits of tissue in itt was suspended in poison and i used to walk round with that vision and that feeling in my body - how sad is that?? and what a waste of life! keep in touch everyone and keep the christmas avatars going!

KW xx

[LookingToGrow]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Keep, I love your Christmas dress!

[kaponium]

AF December - Monday, December 1

Me too love Chrissy dress! Morning all/or evening as it probably is where many of you are. Tuesday morning down here, glad to see this thread going strong - am enjoying it. GREAT to hear of all the positive days of sobriety! And hey, when we don't pick up the first one they just KEEP ON GROWING - and so do we. For me, my past is my best teacher. I do not regret it, nor wish to shut the door on it, but I hope and pray NEVER to return there....This time two weeks ago I was extremely sick and depressed and fearful. Hungover to F**K, and having to hitchhike home (320kms). It was a hell I do not want to re-visit. I have had many worse hells in my drinking, but this one just stuffed me...I am like,. a 40-year woman, and my behaviour when drunk is just NOT ON ANYMORE. Thanks for listening. Hope you having great day Bless