i was drunk yesterday

[maddiva]

i WAS drunk yesterday and cried to the end
i was drunk yesterday as drink was my friend
I took to the bottle to make me feel fine
but I was never fine and thoughts are sublime.

I take a bottle and make it my friend
seems at times - it is my only friend, to the end
I take a curse and make it my own
I have many enemies via the telephone

I want to be sober - I want to be free
Set aside for my own sobriety
We may walk tall but we stumble in the roadside
For the drunk that exists we can never hide

Forgive me dear lord, for i see, hear and think
Forgive me dear lord for I stumble as I drink
forgive me dear lord as I am meak at your feet
Forgive me dear lord a greater drunk I have to meet.

Let us recover and get better now
For what is gone, it is gone and how
the roses are fresh and the grasses are in bloom
Be sober my friend for life is wonderful...........


with love from the very mad maddiva at the bottom of everest:l

[A Work in Progress]

i was drunk yesterday

Keep writing, keep climbing! It's great to have a clear mind, unfogged by alcohol and shame...

[maddiva]

i was drunk yesterday

I LOVE YOU WIP. JUST LOVE YA. THE MEDICINE BUDDHA AND YOUR WISDOM MEANS MCUH

[sunshine_gg]

i was drunk yesterday

Cannot offer a sober thought.. so sorry

SO ashamed, and SO filled with despair,
SO not wanting to to know who I am and what brought me here..
SO full of denial and false confidence.

SO full of NOTHING.
SO full of SOMETHING.
SO full of what I really don't want to acknowledge.

I HATE myself like this. I HATE my life like this.
I KNOW it can be different. It can be all I ever wanted.
For the first time in my life. It could be everything.

But, by the looks of it, I'm about to screw it up.


So sorry, no... this is NOT written while sober. I wish I could WRITE while sober... hasn't been that way in years. I used to write a lot.

I need to get up the friggin courage to let me partner know that YES! IT's a problem to have a wine cellar. OR whatever. I know he will support me. I just lack the guts to let him know that I need all the help I can get.

GOD help me, please. I don't want to lose this relationship... it's all I've ever asked for.

[A Work in Progress]

i was drunk yesterday

Hang on, Sunshine. One thing at a time... one day at a time.... Tomorrow, don't drink. Think about what you want to say to your partner. Do some writing about it. Remember that intimacy demands that we talk about the things we are afraid to talk about...

wip

[Jas56]

i was drunk yesterday

Oh boy does all this sound way too familiar but I am on Day 3 and doing pretty darn good. Hang in there Sunshine and Maddiva......

Clear the house of booze - it helps!