ODAT - MONDAY

[savon19]

ODAT - MONDAY

Wellll, Sea - you MUST break your old record!

Hey - did you ever give Capt. some "big guy" pants? He ahhh, well, ummm, well, no Telling what he'd do with them!

HEY Cap! Where arrrrreee you, master?

Your humble student...

ME

[akgirl]

ODAT - MONDAY

Hello ODATers!!


Just wanted to stop in say hello to everyone.

I had a crazy weekend, and unfortunately decided to drink. Yup, thats me not handling stress well. I am only taking small doses of antabuse. Took one Fri morn but not on Sat. BF came over and brought wine so I had a glass and waited to see...no effects. So for whatever reason I gave my self the green light and had a couple. Then after a very stressful Sunday I drank last night too. Feeling very ashamed and pissed at myself. So I'm going back to antabuse and the freedom it gives me to just not have the option. Heaven knows I am just not strong enough yet to try it without. I better up the dose and order more.

Hi CS, thanks for being there for me last night

New Day, I understand how you feel, I didn't even want to post today because of my failure. Just make sure to stick around and check in when you can.

Sea 35 days!!!! Awesome!

Be, Savon, Dingbat, Ripple and all those to come, have a wonderful day

:l
Ak

[CS04]

ODAT - MONDAY

Dingbat, I have a 2 year old...your avatar is just breaking my heart!

Speaking of which, I guess being an almost-43 year old mom of a 2 year old has put me in an odd place, re. drinking. I keep thinking that I want to go back to the person I was before this problem got out of hand -- happy go lucky, full of energy, blah blah blah. Does that person exist anymore? What am I now? What/who do I need to become? And why am I so afraid? Why am I so stuck and feel so stupid?

I had some AF time in May/June...then have pissed away the last 6 months. It's affecting my work, my friendships, my relationship with my sister...

I'm sorry to say such things, and I hope I don't upset anyone here.

[Cheech66]

ODAT - MONDAY

this is the place to share those feelings. odat my journey starts again today so nice to know you are here

Peace cheech66

[1morechance]

ODAT - MONDAY

The only thing we can do is to not give up or loose hope so let's hang in there:l we have many ODATers who have successfully been AF when they set their goals so I know it could be done.

I had a so so weekend. I did drink saturday after seeing my therapist; I guess he must of said something that unconsiously hit me. I think it had something to do with suppresed pain=suffering. My mother passed away a few years ago:upset:I think that because I started drinking, and off and on and continued binge drinking on occasions, I have not gone through the grieving process as I should have. I have my work cut out for me and I have a feeling it is not going to be easy. I have to face the pain that I have been numbing all these years.

Hope everyone reaches their goal for today

[kaponium]

ODAT - MONDAY

Greetings ODATers...

Hope all good - just caught up on today so far...
Savvy and AK - just keep on GETTING BACK UP - that is the main thing, we all fall down, it is the getting back up that is VITAL....

And we are here for you!

[CS04]

ODAT - MONDAY

This is the hardest time of day for me. Almost 5:00; witching hour. Yesterday I put it off till 6-ish. but eventually it didn't matter. It's like my resolve crumbles over about a 2 hour period.

Wasn't there a thread recently, 'I will not drink today because......." ?

[New Day]

ODAT - MONDAY

The wine section was 10 feet away from me in the grocery store .... and I walked right by it .... that's a FIRST ... especially today when I don't have any "regular" wine in stock ... just the expensive stuff that I won't open (I hope) on my own ....that's "company wine".
Not much, I know, but it's another start! So ... tonight "I will not drink".

[akgirl]

ODAT - MONDAY

Great job NewDay!!!!!! ODAT right?

[Peanut]

ODAT - MONDAY

Hello everybody,
Been a while. I haven't had much luck in the AF department, and so don't feel I should post. I always think it has to be positive, talk about my successes, not my failures. Been kinda back in the old routine lately, and I know I need to stop - I feel so weak. I know how you feel CS. I just have to get back some motivation!!!! No wine in the house, so unless BF stops and gets it for me without me knowing - like on his way home fro work - I will not buy any!!!!! Maybe I will go and buy that little dress at Reitman's that I have been coveting instead.

Everybody does sound so well, and I miss you all. I'm hoping 2009 will be a better year for me and will bring some fresh resolve!
xoxoo Peanut

[akgirl]

ODAT - MONDAY

Nice to see you Peanut!

I know how you feel, I hate to post when I've not been doing well.
But it's okay. Did you stop the supps and meds? Just don't give up, we have to keep trying.

:l
Ak

[CS04]

ODAT - MONDAY

Peanut, I was just thinking about you today, and wondering how you've been. Good to hear from you whether you're "doing OK" or not. This is why we are all here, to vent when all is not OK, or to share successes when we have an OK day.

Stick around. I am hoping for resolve for 2009 as well, although I am not a New Year's resolution maker.

I am being cautious tonight.

[New Day]

ODAT - MONDAY

Thanks AK --- yes, ODAT! Almost a relief that I don't have my regular wine in the house ... it's usually about 10 feet from where I am now and sometimes just it being so close by is too much of a temptation. I may not feel the same way in a day or two ... hoping I don't feel a lot of anxiety knowing it's not there!

Peanut -- great that you've come back ... missed you. I've not had a whole lot of success either, but need to keep trying. I'm afraid if I don't keep coming here, I'll just give up totally.

[kaponium]

ODAT - MONDAY

Good to see you , Peanut - the others a very right, this place is for us all - we just gotta keep trying!! I have battled alcoholism and drug addiction for 15 years, I have fallen down more times that I care to remember BUT I KEEP GETTING UP! And every time, like riding a bike or something, I am 'up' just a little bit longer, and it becomes more and more natural and more and more fun.

[Bandit]

ODAT - MONDAY

Hello All,
Hope you do not mind if I join back in the ODAT thread, just think I need to check in on a daily basis as finding it quite a struggle at the mo

xx