New here, on day 9 but wavering...

[fooji]

Same old story you see all over this place.

Drinking way too much, embarrassing myself and my husband. My last drink was Saturday night (Dec. 6th). Got totally drunk watching the SEC championship game with about 40 friends. So all forty got to witness my humiliation. Ugly, ugly, ugly.

I made the decision (for the 100th time) the next morning. My husband is very supportive (he drinks, but never to excess). He's been so patient with me but I can tell he is getting near the end of his rope. We have 3 kids (12, 10 and 8). I hate the thought of them seeing me drinking like that--:sigh:

So here I am, day 9 and physically I feel fine. I wanted a drink after work on Friday but I told myself if I had one I would want 5 so what was the point???...and that worked on Friday....but I'm wanting one today, too. I would LOVE to be able to moderate but I am not sure that I can--it seems once I start I go overboard, if you know what I mean. I keep thinking about how it's 'not fair', lol--sad but true. I find myself thinking maybe I could just drink a glass of wine---that wouldn't be so bad, would it?? I hate that voice that tries to convince me that it 'wasn't really all THAT bad'...because it was. It was bad and I know it.

So how do you pull yourself out of the funk? The pity party of not getting to do things that other people can do?
I have been reading for a week or so and it has been very helpful...just wanted to say hello and join in with this group. I can tell I am going to need your help!

Thanks for reading...

Jill

[kaponium]

New here, on day 9 but wavering...

Welcome fooj!!! How do you pull yourself out of the FUNK - you ask? Well for me, exercise, yummy food, reading and posting on MWO, SHOPPING!!!! some form of spirituality, being with TRUE friends, TALKING about it.....could go on and on! Bottom line is ( for me) I DON'T WANT TO BE DRUNK ANYMORE, so I just do WHATEVER it takes!

[LookingToGrow]

New here, on day 9 but wavering...

Hi and welcome to the site. Great job on 9 days! What has been your plan for the past 9 days?

[sunshine_gg]

New here, on day 9 but wavering...

Hi Jill and :welcome:

Unfortunately, I know EXACTLY what you're talking about... as does almost everyone else on here. I haven't got much in terms of advice for you; I'm just starting out myself.

I did read (and need to again) read the book and have now ordered supplements. You might want to look into that as well?

Anyhow, welcome and best of luck to you; you've come to a very good and supportive place.

[KateH1]

New here, on day 9 but wavering...

Hi Jill,

First of all.....great that you are on day 9!! Good Job! Yes, I know and understand the feelings and thoughts that you are having. The shame and regret of the ugly displays put on whilst in the middle of a drunk...arghhhh! The thoughts of feeling deprived.....not being able to drink like "normal people", thoughts as to whether or not, just one glass would hurt? I think that most of experience all of this when we first make the decision to become non-drinkers. But all of this will pass in time!

We all must come to our own conclusions and solutions. I came to the conclusion and the comittment to becomone a non-drinker last December. I am so happy that I did! I truly love living my life without alcohol. I never feel deprived anymore....I feel liberated!

I encourage you to read the book, My Way Out, make a plan and follow your plan. Seek support here.....we are all willing to help! Reach out to me anytime!

Best Wishes,
KateH