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[veritas]

I don't know what to say right now..
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I am confused.
I knew early today that I might screw up.

I went, strangely enough, to collect an award from the Post Office..suddenly, I had a craving that almost struck me down It was about 10am.

I managed until 5pm, and then I just thought, "screw it"

I have had 5 drinks.. it is now 10:30

I have blown my AFs..

don't know what to feel, think, or say..

[startingover]

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Veritas, get some water inside you, get some rest and get back on that wagon tomorrow...learn from this and realise that there will be times when you crave...make a note of how you feel right now and ideas to deal with it in the future.

You can succeed at this you know...

[LookingToGrow]

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That good advice Starting. Let us know if we can help you adjust your plan or if you just want to chat, okay?

[keepwalking]

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hey it happens, no harm done! why you beating yourself up??

[Montana Mommy]

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I fell off the wagon last Wednesday, but jumped back on the next day. I felt so bad about slipping, but everything is fine again. Take what you can learn from this (startings advice of noting how you feel right now), and don't feel too bad.
MM

[upnorthgirl]

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Veritas--I agree, don't beat yourself up. Think about how long you have been AF compared to this one slip-up.... ops!: Focus on those days and how it feels to be AF, not on the negative which will only bring you down. If you have done so good for so long, the strength is there inside you.

It seems to me there is a LOT of love in these forums :h so gather it all up and wrap yourself in it like a big warm blankie! The sun will come up tomorrow, and it will be a new beginning. I am sending hugs and kisses. :threekisses:

[SAUSAGE]

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Don't worry
Get straight back on that waggon tomorrow
Don't do what I did after I blew it on day 109 after 108 AF days earlier this year - I thought "what the hell, might as well start daily drinking again", and I did, for weeks and weeks before I was motivated to start trying to quit again
It's just one day that's all LOOK AT THE OVERALL PICTURE and all the AF days you've had
Use it as a learning experience and don't give up - you are doing so well

Take care
sausage

[veritas]

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Thank you all for your replies. It is morning here and I hope that I will be back on the wagon..

[veritas]

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Not coping at all. I read other posts of folks who were where I should be and felt very sad.

It is late afternoon here, as hot as hell. I need to just get through the day.

Tomorrow is my birthday.
Not proud.

[A Work in Progress]

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Veritas, right now it is more important to be determined than to feel proud. Feeling proud will come back soon, as a result of your determination and follow-through! Make a plan for getting through today and tomorrow, and you'll be fine. You may very well feel urges to drink, as a result of feeling bad about yourself. Urges are OK; drinking is not! Get armed with a lot of tea, or water, or anything non-alcoholic, and keep a glass or cup at hand at all times.

[startingover]

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Veritas, Wip is right, keep going, you will reap rewards in such a short time.
You CAN do this if you want to.

[JAMMS]

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Veritas,

I'm sorry your feeling bad. We've all been there my friend.
You have to find it inside yourself (it's in there) to get past it and start again. Get a plan right away, don't waste any more time beating yourself up. You're strong! You can do it!

Forgive yourself, we do! :l

[johnnyh]

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Hi Veritas.

First of all HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

I have not been online since Friday so I am sorry to only read your post now.

Don't be tough on yourself. You have been doing so great.!!! You have done it and you can do it.!! Every day is a new day and presents a new possibility of making a choice!!

I hope you are doing better?!!!

Have a lovely and happy birthday!!!

[gyco]

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as i said tis the season to be jolly,obviously drinking did not make you feel jolly,as many have said get a grip,just by your earlier success you dont want to fall into a hole again,it is a never eneding battle but you have us good luck gyco

[BridgetJones1998]

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Verita,
don't give up on yourself. you are not alone. we have all had relapses and started again at day one. you can do this. we are here with you supporting you. just try to get through the day. can you get the AL out of the house? is that an option?
we're here. let us know how you are doing.:l