Hi just getting up the guts to post here,
I've known that i have a problem with drinking for a while now and I really need to do something about it, starting here today! I binge drink vodka, have blackouts, start phoning people a 3am, and generally make a c**t of myself, and want to stop.
My mum is an alcoholic and it has destroyed our family, she is in the late stages now and has suffered 2 seizures, after the last one she was off the drink for a week but is back on it now. I know she is going to die from it and I am terrified that I am following in her footsteps. I hated growing up with all the adults around us drunk all the time and really don't want to put my son through that.
I didn't have a drink for a couple of months because I was pregnant, but then I lost the baby. I thought that I could drink sensibly, managed to get through a bottle of vodka last night and have realised that it is going to be all or nothing and I am not going to be able to drink in a controlled way.
So I am here and hopefully by posting and documenting it I might be able to stick to it. I just wanted to get it down in a post just how bad I feel right now so next time I am tempted I can remind myself.
Chritmas is going to be hard but and the thought of never having another drink is scarey, so I am just going to do this week by week. 1st goal is to get through christmas without a drink if i manage that I will set some more goals.
Nice to meet you all and looking forward to your support.
x
I've known that i have a problem with drinking for a while now and I really need to do something about it, starting here today! I binge drink vodka, have blackouts, start phoning people a 3am, and generally make a c**t of myself, and want to stop.
My mum is an alcoholic and it has destroyed our family, she is in the late stages now and has suffered 2 seizures, after the last one she was off the drink for a week but is back on it now. I know she is going to die from it and I am terrified that I am following in her footsteps. I hated growing up with all the adults around us drunk all the time and really don't want to put my son through that.
I didn't have a drink for a couple of months because I was pregnant, but then I lost the baby. I thought that I could drink sensibly, managed to get through a bottle of vodka last night and have realised that it is going to be all or nothing and I am not going to be able to drink in a controlled way.
So I am here and hopefully by posting and documenting it I might be able to stick to it. I just wanted to get it down in a post just how bad I feel right now so next time I am tempted I can remind myself.
Chritmas is going to be hard but and the thought of never having another drink is scarey, so I am just going to do this week by week. 1st goal is to get through christmas without a drink if i manage that I will set some more goals.
Nice to meet you all and looking forward to your support.
x
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