Last Saturday I was, literally, falling down drunk. My husband had to drag me to be and I woke up sunday bruied and remorseful and sick. Behaved myself on Monday and Tuesday but Tuesday night drank nearly a full bottle of wine. Wednesday was my third therapy session, and it was rough! We went over the letters from my daughter and husband about how they are affected by my drinking. My homework was to list things I could do instead of drinking, and to make a list of all my memories of my mother's alcoholism. We also decided I should skip two social events that involved lots of AL.
I chose to go to the dinner on Thursday with my sisters, which is always very stressful and intimidating. I made it through without AL !!!During or after I got home, upset. I also spoke to them about my drinking and how I wanted to change, and they seemed receptive.
Friday was a snow day--indoors all day. Cooked up a storm, ate a lot--but did not drink.
Saturday was the big Christmas party--lots of drinkers, open bar. A big booze fest. Struggled whether to go, and did. Drank the famous "lemon water" all night--and lots of cashews and snacks. A few moments were really hard--love those jello shots--but I went six hours without drinking, and did not have anything after at home.
Today I spent the day around the house and some time with my daughter and a nice talk over lunch. Plus, my MWO book and tape arrived. I THINK I CAN DO THIS THING!!!
Then I start to worry it won't last--but with your help I know it will. I get so much inspiration from reading about your success and overcoming obstacles. Just want you to know I am feeling good today and appreciate all of you. :thanks: the only bad thing is that it is freaking freezing and with the wind chill, about -20 degrees.
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