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[sunshine_gg]

Oh dear.

A 'planned' night of drinking - but I haven't stopped since.
Damn. I mean, DAMN. Dunno where to go from here... back to day one, I suppose

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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Come on, sunshine. Pick yourself back up. You know what to do. That's exactly where
to go, back to day 1.

We're here. :l
Be

[KAT20]

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Sunshine Hi, Did not get to catch up on the newbie thread for the weekend. Sorry to hear you are having a rough time. It took me over a year to finally get this right and I have to remember daily why I cannot drink anymore. Take this as a learning experience and never give up. Big hugs for you today.

[BridgetJones1998]

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Sunshine,
Day one can start again. You have done it before. We all struggle with this and feel your pain. You are not alone. Same thing happened to me in May after 21 days AF. I am still trying on Day 7 now. Can you get the AL out of the house? Is that an option? You are not alone in your struggle. We are here with you. We're fighting that damn beast right along with you. You can do this!

[upnorthgirl]

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not to worry, Sunshine

Don't beat yourself up--now you know "just one glass" is not what is going to happen. do you remember what triggered it? Were you happy, sad, stressed? If we could just figure out what the trigger is, maybe we can stop--I hope! Plus, there is always the hope that we are more powerful than AL--I know I am not.

Every day is a brand new day, so tomorrow we expect to hear from you and you can tell us you have a great day and night. And I know you will--I have been reading your posts for awhile now and I know you are a STRONG person (woman?)

[gyco]

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dont you just love ths site,people tht aregoing thro the same as you or just doin there thing to the best of there abilities,that is what its about ,help,one another and you will succeed, success,is what you , feel comfortable with,you hav found the 1st step and i have said this to others you recognise somthing you never did b4,it is not good to do to MUCH,work at it you are a surviour,hav a great christmas gyco

[Accountable for Me]

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Oh my dear, you are so not alone! I can't tell you how many day 1's I have had as well.

There is NO shame in trying. Absolutely NO shame.

You need to dig deep within you and find that strength to get back on track.

We are here for you! :l

[smokey1949]

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GG, as the others have already said, pick yourself up and start again. That wagon must have been wobbly yesterday cause I was also knocked off. So here I am at Day 1 - AGAIN!

[sunshine_gg]

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Thank you guys. Yes, you're right... back to day one.

I don't know WHY I keep 'trying' to have 'one' drink. Never works. I should know better by now. Dammit. I mean, just DAMMIT. I made it farther this past week than in years - and here I go totally ruining it. Arrrgh. Hrmpfh.

Sorry, I'm just really pissed. At myself.

[upnorthgirl]

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Sunshine--being pissed off at yourself is wasted emotion and energy and counter-productive to your needs. Quit banging your head against the wall. :headbanger:Take that energy and channel it into your next day 1, 2, 3, 10, 30. I know you can do it. Take Mr. Merlot, or Mr. Popov or whatever the hell his name is and pour him down the drain. Flush him. Kick his ass out of your life. He is not your friend---WE ARE! And we hate his guts so he has to go-----kick that :badboy: outain't nobody gonna mess with our gang! -----:h:groupluv:

[johnnyh]

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Hey Sunshine.

Don't be angry at yourself. That's yesterday. Today is a new day.

You feeling better today?!

I've been at day one a hundred times. I'm on Antabuse now and feeling pretty positive. The first time I've made it into the second week in a couple of years.

[keeta]

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sunshine,

I am sorry you had a set back. BUT please know you are not alone,
You have had some very good advise, and this is such a terrific place for caring support.

I am exactly where you are sun! Day 2 today for me. After a pretty darn good run of AF. We can do this!
Keep posting and I wish you strength! We will be fine, as long as we don't take that first sip!

Stay strong and good luck!:l
You CAN do it!

[A Work in Progress]

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Sunshine, you haven't "totally ruined" anything. You've had an important learning experience. As you said, it is not realistic (for you, for me, and for most of us who have serious alcohol dependence) to have "a glass" of alcohol. Getting to the place at which we truly understand that is a fantastic thing.

I hope you are feeling better today and up for the challenge of getting, and keeping, alcohol out of your life! What's your plan for making this happen?

[sunshine_gg]

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:thanks: guys!

I know, I know... beating myself up doesn't help anything.

As for a plan? I'm still waiting for my supps - they haven't arrived yet. Once the holiday madness is over I intend to get serious about exercise and well, conquer one day at a time, I guess.

WIP, you're right, I haven't totally ruined everything, but I don't seem to be LEARNING my lesson either. I've tried (and failed at) the 'one glass' many times over - I really ought to know by now. Well, intellectually, I do - but when Mr. Merlot comes knocking I seem to be quite willing to forget.

UpNorth, you made me laugh Thanks! You're right. I've kicked that SOB out before - I can do it again and for good!

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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sunshine,

Try to look at it this way, ok? You haven't ruined anything because nothing can take away what you've already done.

You've simply learned something. Another notch for the 'ol tool belt.

Be