Well boys & girls, I hope everyone had a good xmas, it can be such an emotionally fraught day, and i think there is to much pressure on everyone for everything to go perfect, I almost envey my friend - he boycotts xmas day, - he gets some DVD's out, reads some books, just enjoys himself, doesnt let anybody tell what he has to do or not do, I might have to try it next year LOL.
I really think I am falling in love with my new life, I have been on holiday since the 19th & in my old life I probably would have drunk 2 bottles of wine a night thinking "I'm on holiday - I deserve a treat". I had one glass of red wine on xmas with dinner & that was all I wanted, previously I would been thinking about the next glass & the next after that & then the next bottle, but all I wanted was that one glass to have with dinner, but I didnt NEED it (as in it wasnt a craving), so I'm happy with that. And even when I've been temped I think about how I would feel the next day, not only physically but emotionally/spiritually as well, I am slowly getting my life back, I have spent more time reading, been able to phone friends in the evening without worrying that they will hear me slurring, have been able to go & do last minute last night grocery shopping. I have been enjoying food so much more, maybe cause I'm sober when I sit down to have my dinner & get to enjoy it & I think also because my focus is not on drinking in the evening I have been cooking lots of different things not just the same easy to cook "when I have had a bottle of wine" meals! today is day 23 AF for me & I couldnt be happier, I cant thank every one here enough for there support & love, I jump online a couple of times a day & even if I dont post, my thoughts are with everyone here:h,
any way I just wanted to say how much I love my new life, thanks to you all, I cant wait to see my doctor again, to let him know my progress & to give him the website adress so he can check it out for himself, - he is great & supportive & wants me to keep him in the loop with how I am doing.
much love
Witchy
I really think I am falling in love with my new life, I have been on holiday since the 19th & in my old life I probably would have drunk 2 bottles of wine a night thinking "I'm on holiday - I deserve a treat". I had one glass of red wine on xmas with dinner & that was all I wanted, previously I would been thinking about the next glass & the next after that & then the next bottle, but all I wanted was that one glass to have with dinner, but I didnt NEED it (as in it wasnt a craving), so I'm happy with that. And even when I've been temped I think about how I would feel the next day, not only physically but emotionally/spiritually as well, I am slowly getting my life back, I have spent more time reading, been able to phone friends in the evening without worrying that they will hear me slurring, have been able to go & do last minute last night grocery shopping. I have been enjoying food so much more, maybe cause I'm sober when I sit down to have my dinner & get to enjoy it & I think also because my focus is not on drinking in the evening I have been cooking lots of different things not just the same easy to cook "when I have had a bottle of wine" meals! today is day 23 AF for me & I couldnt be happier, I cant thank every one here enough for there support & love, I jump online a couple of times a day & even if I dont post, my thoughts are with everyone here:h,
any way I just wanted to say how much I love my new life, thanks to you all, I cant wait to see my doctor again, to let him know my progress & to give him the website adress so he can check it out for himself, - he is great & supportive & wants me to keep him in the loop with how I am doing.
much love
Witchy
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