Merry belated christmas and all of that. Have been on holiday and actually only sneaked into the office today to catch up on emails, etc. After this I'll only be back on the 5th.
I have had a great christmas and managed to stay sober. I've been AF now for 18 full days so on day 19 now.
Last night though I took my wife out for dinner and she had a glass of wine. (She had asked me if I'd mind and I didn't). But than all of a sudden that all too familiar urge was back. Before I knew it I had her glass in my hand and was smelling the oh so beloved and missed zesty nose of the sauvignon blanc. I managed to put the glass back down and pretended it was all a joke. It wasn't. I was an inch away from drinking again. And that although I am on Antabuse. When I had that glass so close in front of me I was prepared to risk being sick like a dog 10 minutes later.
Well. The good news is I made it. Another day. I might go and see my doc though and see if he can prescribe me something else for the cravings. It was sooo intense.
Well. now it's just new years and than all the 'drinking' holidays are over.
I hope you are all doing well and surviving these ever so challenging days.
Greetz from sunny cape town.
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