Life is filled with such evil and atrocoties that sometimes we can numb ourselves as a way of dealing with pain, be it what we see, feel or hear about.
Now I am sending you all very good wishes for this New Years Eve in England and as I am not a clock and do not know if it is New Years Day in other countries - A Happy New Year if today is New Years Day. How damned confusing!!!!!
I am feeling more confident and happy - at peace if you like, than I have done for many years. I am noticing and recalling things which keep coming back to me now that I am relatively sober. Things people have done against me, things I have done against others and generally the state of play in my life.
I have caused havoc with my drinking. NOt only personally, professionally, spiritually and telephone-ly!!! But I am not going to dwell, cos dwell rhymes with 'hell'. I was lying in my bed, thinking and thought to myself, ten years have lapsed this coming 2009 since my life went 'tits up' (yes the official word!!!) and you know what I can count five good friends who have been there for me. How lucky am I???? Before my life went 'tits up' I counted many 'so called' friends but they were not. They were 'fair weather' friends and do you know what?? The sunshine is coming back into my life after my walk in the darkness and much has been learnt. I shall not be fooled again.........!!!!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL - MAY YOU ALL HAVE HEALTH, WEALTH, HAPPINESS, LOVE, PEACE AND ALL YOU WISH FOR IN 2009:h
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