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[lil.michelle]

Hey everone!

Well i'm far from new to this site or to this program but i'm starting from scratch again. I have been moderating but well, i've slipped back to where i was, all my bad habbits, drinking every night, hiding bottles, being depressed, putting on weight and feeling crap EVERYDAY! Soo realising last night that i was back to how i used to be, i have decided to brush myself off, get my supplments back out and start again.

I have started to realise that as much as i wish i can moderate, i can't and i need to stop kidding myself.

Today is the start of a new year, it's the perfect time to start now all of the merry reasons to drink are all over with.

I wish everyone the best sober and a happy new year!! Love you all XXX

[startingover]

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Happy new year michelle. Yep make this a good one for yourself and your family.

[gyco]

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lil M happy new year,and good luck to you,and to the rest of you folks,i made a resolution to my self last night,positive thinking,will lead you thro this delema,tht is my goal,whether i drink or not,somtimes councilling helps,somtimes coming here helps,and even somtimes treatment helps,the only goal most people hav is to be able to say NO,to much of anything is not good.i do wish you well gyco

[Sue Ellen]

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Well Done Michelle!
Like you I am starting again. I have been abusing AL for over 20 years. I keep down a good job and have lovely daughters but still struggle daily with this addiction. I gave up about 8 years ago for 2 whole years - my 'golden years' as I remember them. Then I thought I could moderate and slipped back down that spiralling depressive slope - you know how it is - hiding it, blackouts, the shame and the desperate need to drink but not to drink. I came on this site last March but couldn't abstain and felt too ashamed to post anymore. Christmas was my nemesis - barely remember any of it and my daughters need a better mother than that. Am on day 4 of AF and feeling ok.
To bring it home - went to a New Year's Eve party last night and was AF. However, about 1.30 am a group of about 5 very drunken women started arguing, swearing and then fighting in front of everyone. If there was ever a lesson to be learnt - watching them was it! I woke up this morning tired but no hangover and thinking thank god it wasn't ME!!!!!!!

Am reading Allen Carr's Easyway book at the moment which is excellent - the only point I don't get is when he claims that alcohol tastes vile. To me it doesn't - I love the taste of cold dry white wine and this is something I'll have to deal with.
Sorry this has turned into a bit of 'my story' but I am so grateful to be sober today and have found reading all the posts so inspirational!

Many thanks all of you. xx

[LookingToGrow]

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Happy New Year and here's to a fresh start :lilangel:

[A Work in Progress]

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GOOD FOR YOU LM!! And welcome (welcome back!) Sue Ellen!

For so many of us it's true (it was for me) that we simply have to try, and try, and try to control our drinking, and we have to demonstrate to ourselves, over and over, that we just cannot consistently do that... before we can take a big sigh of relief and put all that struggling aside. Just let it go. Drinking alcohol is NOT worth all that time and energy and pain and suffering...

[time2change]

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Michelle
As many have said it took alot of us many failed attempts to decide we just could not drink again. Glad you are not giving up. Here's to an AF 2009!!!

[notevergivingup]

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Happy New Year Michelle, you can do this. I know how awful it feels to slip, but like you said it is a new year and you now realize you can not moderate so I know you will do it.

Twosox

[Mohun]

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Michelle, if it helps, you saved me the time of writing an identical post. I am back for a second chance as well. Day 1.

[kitkatsue]

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A Work in Progress;507523 wrote: Just let it go. Drinking alcohol is NOT worth all that time and energy and pain and suffering...

So well put !!

[kitkatsue]

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[QUOTE=lil.michelle;507374]Well i'm far from new to this site or to this program but i'm starting from scratch again.

I have decided to quote other people since they put it so much better.

I am not new to this site but I did not check in every day and I think that is what I need to change.

kit

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[Cat Belle]

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:new: Day 1 for me too. I have been reading the posts since September - everyone is soooo supportive. Its been too long coming, now it's time. . . Wish me luck or courage - Thanks

[new life]

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just ride

time to get up and ride again ,,you are strong, you are one to get over this and we are here to support you

[BridgetJones1998]

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Welcome back LM,
As you know, you are NOT ALONE! We are all struggling with this beast. There is so much wisdom and support here. Make a plan, stick to it, come here when you're feeling down or weak. Big hug.

Also, welcome Cat Belle!!! Nice to see you here. Congrats on your Day 1. It's a big step. Look forward to getting to know you!

[OverIt2007]

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Hi Michelle. I am starting over again too! Like you said, it is a new year, what a perfect time to start a new life too. You are not alone, we are all in here to help and support each other in our goals of a sober and a HAPPY new life.