PROGRAM '09 WEEK #1 Jan 1

[Peanut]

PROGRAM '09 WEEK #1 Jan 1

Day 3 is hard, I agree, and it will be saturday and I have a party to go to. Ugh!!! Oh well, I'm determined this time around. I was listening to the CD's earlier, the clearing one, and I kept dozing off. Think it works anyway???? I was just so tired. I also listened to the subliminal one, and it makes me feel so relaxed.

I think I will cook salmon tomorrow. Just finishing up leftovers tonight from have a housefull this past week. Start with a fresh grocery shop this weekend. Good idea about the South Beach diet, but I think I will do the Detox/Cleanse I have. It has alot of herbal supplements though, so don't want to take too many supps at the same time. I'm never sure how they all would interact!!!!

Have a great, sober friday night all!!
xoxo peanut

[USMgirl]

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OMG! Cooking is a HUGE trigger for me! Luckily, didn't have to tonight! We're going out for a family meal with no AL!!!
Looking forward to a nice hot bath w/lavendar afterwards and taking two Advil PM's with Sleepy Time tea......we'll see if sleep happens!!! I start Campral tomorrow and am a little anxious about that.

Good night all! Hugs to us all! :l

[rustop61]

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Hi everyone

Great to see so many people so optimistic. Also so many of you have lots of AF days already under your belt, well done. On Day 3 and feeling good. Never have any trouble sleeping and that really helps. Started back eating healthly yesterday as well. Had lost a stone before the holidays. Gained a few pounds but intend to shift them in the next week for two. Roll on 2009.

Rustop

[dill]

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Day 3 is just starting for me. I slept OK and woke up refreshed and generally healthier than I felt yesterday. Nice trend! Well wishes to all for today. Stay strong!

[Cat Belle]

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Good morning everybody - Day 3! WOOHOO!! Def slept better last night than the night before and I feel great. Let's hope today goes well as this is all new territory to me. Taking the dogs to the park this morning for some exercise. Hope everyone has a good day!

:new:

[yogini]

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Day 3!

Jamms ... where ARE you???

Day 3 for me and I'm feeling a little better. I started my new BARTENDING job last night and it was a long night. I'm still tired and go in again this morning to learn how to "open".

I'm feeling strong ... no real cravings. Just still a little depressed.

:goodjob: Good Job everybody out there for sticking with it and all the positive posting. Thank you all for being here for each other (and for me)! :thanks:

[veritas]

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I'm drawng towards the end of day 3. I think I am very lucky, as I don't have a problem sleeping. Bit more difficult today than yesterday. I think that's because I have not eaten as well. My son had food poisoning last night. I heard the poor fellow retching and vomiting. I am telling myself, "is that how you want to feel tomorrow?", every time I think of nipping to the bottle store.

[New Day]

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Day 3! ... and a Saturday!

Feeling very positive today. I wish I didn't have trouble getting to sleep when I'm AF ... took me over 3 hours last night (even with 2 Melatonins and a Sleep-Aid). Hopefully that will improve over the next few days. Still, I feel much better than a wine-induced sleep.

Stay strong everyone, and together we can do this!:l

[USMgirl]

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Good morning everyone! Jamms!!! Where are you??????? Let's hear from you!!!

Had a much better night last night!! Yeah!! But instead of Advil PM I decided to take a couple of Valerian herb pills. I had bought them a while back and never used them before. I guess I can say that they worked. I slept really well...feel great this, my 3rd day!! And plan on good work out this afternoon, when the house is empty and I can focus a little more on me!!!! (have a house full of kids right now!)

I started my Campral this morning and am really excited to see how it works for me! I swear, something different has clicked in me..... a new HOPE, I think.

You guys have a great Saturday and I'll be thinking about you all throughout the day!!!!!
God Bless!
:goodjob:

[JAMMS]

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So Sorry everyone...I am having serious internet problems...it's so frustrating!!!!

I just had a little anxiety when I saw the 4 pages on the thread I havent' read thru them all yet but I wanted to post and say "hi, I'm here!"

Day #3....I've not been feeling good, sinus problems and sore throat...sleeping has been ok...the calms forte is really helping, I think....been having wierd dreams.....haven't had much energy but it may because I haven't been feeling well so I have not been doing any walking. Maybe later today. My house is a mess. I will try to get it together today.

I'm going to make some lunch and read thru the thread. :l

-jen

[JAMMS]

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Okay...I've read the entire thread....

It is so inspiring to see everyone so dedicated to this. Thank you all for doing this for yourselves :l You are all so special to me. I don't know about you,but there's no way I could get through this wihout out you.

I think MWO an all of you is what I've been missing these past few days...I feel better already!


Yogini-your bartending job can be used to your advantage, just look at how the people on the otherside of the bar begin to look and act after a while.....the same people, night after night....drinking and drinking and drinking......its really sad....I was a bartender/watiress and hubby and I owned a neighborhood bar for years. Now that's depressing....your depression however, is quite normal unfortunately....are you taking anything for it? Forgive me if I've asked you this already but are taking the supps?

Dill and Cat- You guys are doin great! Have you read the book? Will you be following the program as the book says?

USMgirl- Glad you slept....what is Valerain? Cooking has always been a trigger for me too. I've been drinking gingerale in a fancy glass with ice and a straw. Sometimes I throw a piece of orange of a strawberry in it to make it even fancier. woohoo! I think it's just the picking up of the glass as I stir something or after I chop something...you know what I mean. Tonight I'm making clams oreganata, flounder, and shrimp scampi over linguini....with sauteed spinach w/garlic.


Sara- How's it going since no prozac? I'm nowhere near ready to give up my lexapro yet...one thing at a time. Look out for a PM form me. No hurry on a response, whenever you get a chance.

Veritas and NewDay- I find that days 3 and 4 are very hard. Sleeping and irritability are theworst for me on those days. Stick with it. You're doing great!

My daughter is demanding my attention so I will be back later.

[Peanut]

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Morning everybody (or is that afternoon!),
Had to take a pill to fall asleep last night, but think I managed over 9 hours. I wish I didn't need such assistance, but I can't stand getting no sleep.

So we are all having success so far, yes? Good your internet troubles are resolved Jamms!!!
Yogini - I agree that working behind a bar must be more of a turn off to drink than the other way around. All that evil booze breath directed at you!! ha!!
New Day - I am going out right away - IF my van starts - and pick up some Valerian. I need to try anything to help with the sleep problem.

Day 3 here for me too and feeling pretty good, especially after my super swim last night - 2.5km!! Felt great but my arms had nothing left in them when I was done. I am trying it this time without the Topa, and no B50 to reduce my headaches. Cut back on the Kudzu too, as I think it gives me a headache. I was really cold and shivery last night, although that could be because we live in a deep freeze up here!!! My body isn't used to not having that blood-warming wine!! I drank a whack of cranberry and soda though - lots of liquid and I think that must be good for my poor old dehydrated bod!!

Best carry on - my son is hovering, keeps wanting to read over my shoulder. I have french bread dough rising, which I will take to a post-run pot-luck later today. That along with my O'doules AF beer!!

Have a great saturday, wherever you are in the world!!
xoxo peanut

[dill]

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JAMMS, I have not read the book. I tried to download it but was unsuccessful. However, I've been doing a lot of reading here on RJ's blog, the research threads, the toolbox thread, etc. I have the CD's and use them. I don't have time to do it the way you're supposed to, but I use them when I can. I find them helpful, especially the Clearings. I have many, not all, of the supps, (kudzu, L-glut, GABA, and the vitamins) and I am finding them helpful as well. I'm on Campral, too! For sleep I have been takine valerian, GABA, 5-HTP and half dose of the antihistamine benedryl. I also sometimes drink a small glass of milk and eat a half of a peanut butter sandwich in the evening. It must be helping because sleep has not been a problem.
I have been trying for awhile to do this. I have never made it past 4 days before. I've been drinking my entire adult life, although, not heavily until the last 10 years. Anyhow, I'm hoping this time is different. It feels different. The fact that I finally joined the site and am getting and hopefully giving support is a huge help!
Sorry you've been having internet problems. It would be very bad for me right now if I didn't have this resource! I imagine it is the same for you.
I would like to share something that happened today that shows just how close we can come to caving in: I was at the grocery today. Every now and then the thought of buying some wine as well as groceries popped into my brain. Well, actually MORE than every now and then! It was almost a constant conversation going on in my brain as I shopped. Well, I was almost through the store and was buying some deli items at the instore deli, which is right next to the instore wine shop. I was pretty darn close to giving in and buying that bottle of chardonnay when I reached into my pocket to pull out my grocery list to double check and make sure I hadn't forgotten anything. I pulled out the piece of paper and much to my surprise, it was my "other" list! It was a list I had made and stuffed into my pocket about the negative consequences of my drinking! I had forgotten all about it. It was just what I needed at that particular moment of extreme weakness. I read it, stuck it back in my pocket and pushed my cart on past the wine shop and to the check out! WHEW!
Sorry this is so long. I just thought it was an amazing little coincidence and I'm grateful it happened.
Thanks for starting this thread!

[Cat Belle]

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JAMMS - thanks for the encouragement. I have read the book and I am taking the supps. I have to say, either i haven't hit the "hard" part yet or these supps work incredibly well! Today is day 3, and the worst it has been is stress, nervousness, a little mind racing when its time to cook -- b/c that's when I would start to drink. I have been drinking heavily for years so if it doesn't get much worse than this, the supps are worth there weight in GOLD!! I also have the CD's, just haven't started them yet.

Just an aside, I wonder if anybody else is experiencing such a difference in mood, attitude, energy - although its day 3?

[JAMMS]

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Cat- That's wonderful! I wish I energy but as I said I can only hope it's because I'm not feeling well....It'salready 2:30 and I really need to get my ass moving...I need to go to the gricery store andthe bank and the drug store for my RX I wanted to take a walk arund the block....OK..OK I'm going!

Dill- Nice one in the Grocery store....keep that list in your pocketbook!