ODAT Monday

[universal]

Wow, haven't started the ODAT thread in months........almost since Bessie........

Who I'm thinking I need to call. Haven't had an update in a while. To our old ODATERs, I'll try to touch base with her.

Back to work for me today, not looking forward to it. Still having a bit of a hard time. Really missing my friend, still can't believe she's gone, doesn't seem fair but I am starting to accept reality.

But, need to get back to reality......So here I am. Acceptance, tolerance.......frick, this holiday really sucked, not going to lie to you.

Back to ODAT. Hope you guys are all doing well, I've missed you over the holidays, sorry i wasn't around.

To our old standbys - hey guys! To the newbies, please join in, let us know how you are doing. We are always here for love and support. you will get to know us well.

Ripple........you out there?

Love you guys, and thanks for those who have been there through the last couple of weeks. It's been hard and you have been amazing.

Uni

[witchywoman]

ODAT Monday

hay ODATer's. just checking in, hope everyones day has gone well, 1str real day back at work, after the holiday season, have decided to be super nice to my boss & see how that affects things, hes a self absorbed narcisesst (SP???) who's idea of good management is to belittle & intimidate people, (fun times), I think maybe part of my drinking was an effort to deal with that. on the plus side I have been told that our general manager knows whats going on. i actually feel more capable to deal with him now that i'm not in a stupor most of the time.
Uni, i know its a cliche but time heals all wounds, I feel stupid even saying that, this totally sucks for you & my thoughts are with you.
hay Savey, did you get to play with more puppies today, i am such a sucker for kittens, show me a kitten & I am totally mooshy.

[rustop61]

ODAT Monday

Hi all ODAT'rs

Not quite back to normal here yet as my girls dont go back to school until Wednesday. Uni, do let us know how Bessie is, I miss her funny posts. As Savvy says, time is the only thing that will help. We are all here for you, let us know how you are getting on.

Everyone else big hello and have a great week.

Rustop

[Mad Mummy]

ODAT Monday

Morning ODATers

Well almost all children back to school today (1 still off as Teacher Training). So much planned but my bathroom had other ideas and the shower "off" switch has broken AGAIN!! Last did this less than six months ago in the summer (some of you ODATers will remember it well). Have decided that enough is enough and am getting new one and a plumber to fit it - think I should have done this in the first place!

Had a drinking most days Christmas period and stopped on Saturday so feeling non-hungover today but could do with sleep patterns returning to normal.

Hey Rustop how are you going on these days? Good to hear from you again.

Witchy, I had a boss like that (mine was female which I think made it worse), I went on a charm offensive with her and she just did not know what to do - was really funny. Think it's sad that some people have to act like that to others to big themselves up or whatever they think they're doing - horrid!

Hey Uni if you do speak to Bessie send her my love and say we'd love to hear from her on ODAT again - hope she's well.

Happy New Year to you all.

Bx

[irish eyes]

ODAT Monday

Hi ODATers
Day 5 for me today, I feel good about that. I ahve some type of virus yesterday and today pains in every joint in my body and gastro enteritis so am not sure what that is about. I get great strength from touching base with you all.

[BridgetJones1998]

ODAT Monday

Good morning ODATers
Thanks for starting Uni. Yes, please let us know how Bessie is. I remember her from March when I was here briefly. As far as grief goes, I may have mentioned, I lost my sister 6 years ago, 6 years ago January 9th. She was 38. She collapsed suddenly of a brain hemorrhage. There is a quote by Christine Ross - "Grief doesn't end, it evolves". It has been true for me. It does get better, it never goes away, just changes. I think I am still dealing with it. My heart goes out to you. Congrats on staying AF! Keep that up. What a way to honor her!

Witchy - good luck at work. I have read about what a horrible person he is. Take the high road. That sounds like a good idea. You can laugh inside at what an ass he is. Congrats on your 30 days!!!!

Hi Rustop! Hope you have a great day!

hi Madmummy - sorry about the sleep. That is maddening. Are you taking any supplements? Calms forte or melatonin? I took calms forte early on in AF and it helped me tremendously (I added a little benadryl). Now I am almost 3 weeks and sleeping like a baby with nothing. It should get better.

Hello Irish eyes - Congrats on day 5! and sick to boot. Hope you get to feeling better!

Well, back to work today. Weighed in today. Almost 3 weeks with no AL and have not lost one pound. Did not gain anything over the holidays which I guess is a plus but am ready to get serious about losing this AL weight and make some positive changes in this body. I have 3 months until a college reunion and would like to NOT hear gasps when I walk in the room and whispers of "boy.. she has put on quite a few lbs"... but gasps of "boy she looks HOT!" Today is the day. Went grocery shopping last night.. at 9pm ! I haven't done anything productive after 7pm in 10 years b/c I've been drunk so that was a wonderful feeling. I bought lots of vegetables and fruits, some fish and plan on implementing my new eating plan and exercise plan today. NO EXCUSES!

EVeryone have a great day!!

[upnorthgirl]

ODAT Monday

I messed up also

I had 18 days under my belt and felt great. Then we went out of town--no computer--and on New year's Eve had two (Big Gulp size) glasses of wine. Nothing New Year's Day, but Friday, Saturday and Sunday I had wine and Vodka. Got pretty drunk and now I feel like shit and a stupid loser. Today is day one...again.

I think one of the reasons I started was all the nasty, raging phone calls from my mother. But that is no excuse really--more than anything I do NOT want to turn out like her!!!!:upset: So here I am again and I will get back with the program.

Back to work today--Witchy--one reason I hate my job now is my boss--this is his fourth year and oddly enough when I started drinking. EVIL personified. Again, not a valid excuse.

I feel like crap today--my head is fuzzy and pounding with a headache

[cassy]

ODAT Monday

Hi upnorthgirl

Jump right back on track if you can..18 days is a great achievement..feeling like crap might spur you on to an Af day.
Happy new Year..you can do it..I guess your hint is to keep coming on to this site for support..i think i will be here a lot as need the support..

Cassy

[greeneyes]

ODAT Monday

Talofa!! (Samoan)

(In honor of Bessie) I used to start out with good morning in different languages. I sent her a long PM and didn't hear back which I didn't expect. Uni let us know how she's doing. I have to open the office so I have to jump in the shower and run. I'll check in later.

Lots of lovely commitment in the thread today! Good to hear. Wonder where dingbat is.

[savon19]

ODAT Monday

Gosh - I'm a bit overwhelmed by you guys today.

Bridget... your quote, "Grief doesn't end; it evolves" is so True. I'm so sorry for the sudden loss of your sister at such a young age. Beyond horrible. And, of course, uni, the loss of your friend.

And, Brig - 3 wks. is Amazing. You sound SO on course! You're an inspiration. With that attitude, I know you'll lose the weight & knock 'em dead at your reunion!!

So... it's Day 2. I think one hard thing about this is that as my mind becomes clearer, memories of things I've said & done in Past well up... and I start beating myself up! I need to train myself to change my thoughts. Or I can see how it would be very easy to give up the ship.

Think Positive, Attitude of Gratitude, yadayadayada...!

Too easy to drown in despair. My nose is Barely above water. Gotta keep stroking. Get stronger (in a lot of ways).

And - upnorth - you are NOT a loser! If you are, then we ALL are -- and I Refuse to believe that the beautiful, sensitive, understanding people on this forum are losers. Impossible! Besides, you did 18 days - which I haven't done in Months (and then only once).

OK... One Day at a Time!!

Have a great day, all.

[ezzmae]

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Hi guys

Day 8 over here - I am about to fall into bed with exhaustion. I am so glad that the sleepless nights of the first 5 days are over with.

Upnorthgirl - you did so well with the 18 days AF. I think we both started at the same time and I only got to day 10.

Savon - glad to see you are feeling more positive about everything.

OK, my brain has stopped working, time to hit the bed. A big hi to everyone and I hope you all have a great day.

[BecomingMeAtLast]

ODAT Monday

Hey ODATers!

uni, good luck with plowing forward both with work and without your friend. I lost one a year ago and still miss him. But it's better now.

witchy, kill 'em with kindness at work! LOL

hey rusty, madmummy, cassy and greenie! Haven't heard from dingy, either.

congrats on the day 5 irish!

bridget, your weight resolve is inspirational. My daughter did 20 minutes on the treadmill at 6:30 this morning. She's 12. If she can do it, I can too, right?!

upnorth, I hope you feel better. I just slipped this weekend, too, so here's to a new beginning, ok?

savvy, congrats on the day 2. Your posts sound better already.

I've been working straight through the holidays so today's nothing new to me. I just need to keep focused on year-end crap from '08 and get it done early. My son was so sick yesterday, I don't know if he'll make it to school today.

Freezing rain out, really crappy out. I'll put some good tunes on, listen to the CDs and get in my own little world here.

Take care,
Be

[New Day]

ODAT Monday

Good day all ODATer's ---- wow, the thread is active this morning! -- in a bit of a rush, so sorry I can't address each of you individually. Day 5 for me ... this is usually my latest stumbling day, but I feel more positive this time that I can get past it..... only the lack of being able to get to sleep is quite annoying. I went to bed at 11:00 pm and was WIDE awake until 4:00 am!
Ezzame --- I read where you said the first 5 days re sleep were the worst ... I'll hang in there and hope it changes for me too!
Uni --- good to see you around again .... and again, sorry for your loss. 2008 was a bad year for a lot of people .... glad to see it gone.
Bridget --- I need to lose the wine weight as well ... have been going to the gym since Jan 2 .. today is tennis practice though..... and cutting back on the carbs. I'm going on holiday on the 19th .... so need to get back into a bathing suit ... and right now I don't even want to think about that! I won't be able to lose enough by then, but I need to make a start!
Will check in later today when I need to gather strength around the dinner hour to fight off AL!
Have a great AF day everyone!

[Peanut]

ODAT Monday

Morning all,
Uni - thanks for starting this very busy thread today. My heart goes out to you during this rough time.

I too am suffering insomonia, New Day. All those natural remedies do nothing for me. Sleepytime tea, plus 2 valerian, the 20min hypno track and sublminal - I make myself fall asleep, but BF was up and down, smoking in the middle of the night, finally settled about 3am, and then I couldn't sleep any more - I maybe got 3 hours and am so bleary today. Normally, I would just drink a bottle of wine to get some sleep, but I won't do that this time! I will keep trying. I know it does get better, but it is so hard. And I have faith you (and I) will get past day 5 today!!

Upnorth - I also call myself a big loser when I don't succeed in my AF goals, but really, we are not losers. We don't call anybody else here loser, but try to help them get up. So let's be kind to ourselves and concentrate on our successes instead, ok? You are going to do great.

Bridget - I'm behind you on the weight loss front. I gained almost everything back that I lost when I went AF last June, and I want it gone!!

Greenie - surprised you didn't hear back from Bessie. I've been wondering how she has been doing lately! If you hear from her, keep us posted.

Savon - you made day1, you can make day2 too. We are all rooting for you!!

My stupid BF walked into my room last night about 5 minutes before the end of the hypno track, leaned over me and said "you are getting sleepy", etc. I could have f**king punched him in the nose. Told him was the most inconsiderate shit head in the world. I wasn't impressed obviously. So Becoming, enjoy your alone time with your CD's - it's the best way to do it, when there is nobody around to bug you or keep distracting you with music, chatter and clatter!!!

Hi to everybody else!
Must get back to work - the techs are all back from coffee break!!
xoxoxo peanut

[peacenik]

ODAT Monday

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