I can't take it! any more

[fundrunk]

I can't take it! any more

My mother called me tonight! She's a psycho, a demon when she's drunk, actually a "nice" person when sober (but I'm starting to think it's a facade?). Problem is she can't stay away from it for very long. She talks down on me, compares me to my dad which she hates coz he hasn't been the husband she wanted. OMG what a psycho marriage! He's also an alcoholic who just lost his job and lives upstairs with my grandmother right now!

I'm at loss

Sorry for hijacking the thread, but I felt relieved to see others in simular situations.

[veritas]

I can't take it! any more

:l hugs to you all.

I think that this is much to big to be handled alone. No one deserves it. It is important to realise that words hurt as much as any beating, and the emotional scars need healing. Please, for the sake of your own healing, seek professional help. A bottle is no substitute. What is happening is horrible, horrible, horrible.

[KateH1]

I can't take it! any more

Dear Upnorthgirl,
I am so sorry that you are having to endure this. I understand, my mother was very much the same as yours. For years and years I tried everything to "earn her love", to "please her", it was not possible because her hatred came from within herself. Over time, her alcoholism destroyed everything about her and robbed her of friends, family and her dignity.

One of the best things that I ever did, was to put a block on my phone, so I could not recieve her calls and to put distance between my parents and myself. I then was able to go to work and repair the damage within myself. Simply put, you do not have to take this abuse. Number one is to take good care of yourself and your children. Break the cycle of alcohol addiction and abuse. Create a new legacy.

I wish you peace and strength!
XXX Kate

I hope that you are able to break free from this, it sounds like you have a wonderful husband and children. Put your energy and thoughts into them and yourself.

[CaptJBean]

I can't take it! any more

my loves goes to you... but an act of kindness, might help her thru to,,, I don't know the truth... but a kind word turns away a wrath word.........

[upnorthgirl]

I can't take it! any more

Thanks, everyone

Today is Day One...again.