I'm back and I felt depressed and terrible...

[sumobaby]

I'm back and I felt depressed and terrible...

hi everyone...
I will still come back, and the next time I'm back, I hope I will be able and proud to say I'm AF again. Take care everyone. And no , I will NOT give up to the BEAST. I am going to try again. And I was thinking... if I can do it before, why not now?

My warmest regards and heartfelt thanks to all on MWO

27th Jan 2009

[sumobaby]

I'm back and I felt depressed and terrible...

I'm back and recovering nicely

Hi all,
I'm back...and I've made it..:upset: (emo)
I can say that will power really plays a big part and needs alot of determination. I knew I had a problem and I have to agree it is. My 4 younggins is my motivation. I cant face them especially when I'm not sober, to hurt their feelings is the last thing I ever want to do.

Tomorrow is 7th April,2009 and it will be my very successful 1st month AF since I jumps back into quitting and staying AF again. I am a single mom of 4 children, and I knew I'm a strong woman, I have to, at least for my children and my health wellness.

My bf has planned to come back to me after he left for almost a year now. Day after tomorrow will be our 2 years anniversary since we knew each other. He should be coming back this month in April..the thing is..after he returns..We may want to go to a restaurant or night out..and I'm quite worry that I might take up drinking again..but i always remember the bad-o-times,.I know how pissed I am with myself those days after drinking. I am glad I still remember. That's a little different from before, where i always forgot and drink again.

When me and my bf re-unite this month after 1 long year..is it 'alright' to have some white wine during dinner or champagne? I knew that's a risk..and I started to feel I am giving an excuse to drink..:S :S (cos I am not eligible for the only "moderate drinkers seat")
The only alcohol I would get addicted to is beer & I've stopped that already. I have the urge at times especially on hot sunny days! Those who been there, you knew exactly how I feel!! haha... I did not give in and still enduring..lol

Have a blessed day everyone.

Regards + love,
sumobaby

[sumobaby]

I'm back and I felt depressed and terrible...

Hi Wally,
Thank you so much! I'm doing ok Guess I thought of the wine because that was only into my 1st month AF , Its my 2nd month being sober now.

sumobaby