Newbies Nest
Morning everyone. I haven't had time to read messages other than lola's great morning post, and I know if I take the time to do that right now, I won't get off my butt and onto my daily exercise commitment I added to my goals. I need to do that to move forward on this AF journey. Freefly is correct in not getting complacent in our goals and staying disciplined in our actions or we can easily fall.
I'm on day 27 AF today, and both Sunday and Monday were days of struggle for me on the urge front due to personal issues that caused both internal conflict and emotional pain. In the past, I've dealt with issues by inviting my psychologist AL to join me. He was always available and quite dependable I might add at a moments notice. I didn't have to face it on my own. (hmmm...there's something strong in that statement.) I thank those here who have posted both wisdom and struggles in their battle because it is in those posts, and my will to change that I find strength when the going gets tough. It's a bit like what goes in, comes out, so feeding my brain on such things becomes very handy when the demon comes calling. My brain begins to fight back with thoughts that keep me from being defeated. There are many here, and at various times some ring louder than others. This morning I was thinking how glad I was that I didn't breakdown and call my old psychologist. I woke without an all day hangover and without shame and embarrassment. Old dependable would have only kept my feet stuck in the mud through a muddled brain and defeatist attitude. Giving him the boot leaves me free to continue to move forward solving problems vs. remaining stuck and wallowing in them. It's well worth the discipline. It builds self respect and confidence that my life is worth fighting for and problems can be dealt with appropriately with a sound mind...my mind...a gift to us in this life. Why trash it sitting with a shrink that's only help is in handing you a noose as your way out?
Keep up the fight! It isn't always easy, but asking an enemy for help will never give you the results you REALLY are looking for.
:welcome: to all the newbies. YOU can do it with the right ammo, mindset/determination. If you fall, just get right back up and look at it not as failure, but another learning experience to move you toward success. :l to all.
Morning everyone. I haven't had time to read messages other than lola's great morning post, and I know if I take the time to do that right now, I won't get off my butt and onto my daily exercise commitment I added to my goals. I need to do that to move forward on this AF journey. Freefly is correct in not getting complacent in our goals and staying disciplined in our actions or we can easily fall.
I'm on day 27 AF today, and both Sunday and Monday were days of struggle for me on the urge front due to personal issues that caused both internal conflict and emotional pain. In the past, I've dealt with issues by inviting my psychologist AL to join me. He was always available and quite dependable I might add at a moments notice. I didn't have to face it on my own. (hmmm...there's something strong in that statement.) I thank those here who have posted both wisdom and struggles in their battle because it is in those posts, and my will to change that I find strength when the going gets tough. It's a bit like what goes in, comes out, so feeding my brain on such things becomes very handy when the demon comes calling. My brain begins to fight back with thoughts that keep me from being defeated. There are many here, and at various times some ring louder than others. This morning I was thinking how glad I was that I didn't breakdown and call my old psychologist. I woke without an all day hangover and without shame and embarrassment. Old dependable would have only kept my feet stuck in the mud through a muddled brain and defeatist attitude. Giving him the boot leaves me free to continue to move forward solving problems vs. remaining stuck and wallowing in them. It's well worth the discipline. It builds self respect and confidence that my life is worth fighting for and problems can be dealt with appropriately with a sound mind...my mind...a gift to us in this life. Why trash it sitting with a shrink that's only help is in handing you a noose as your way out?
Keep up the fight! It isn't always easy, but asking an enemy for help will never give you the results you REALLY are looking for.
:welcome: to all the newbies. YOU can do it with the right ammo, mindset/determination. If you fall, just get right back up and look at it not as failure, but another learning experience to move you toward success. :l to all.
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