Hi Cat,
Yes, I did go to bed. Up again, but will go back, soon. I had to leave home and hubby to be with my son and help him through all the legal and medical appointments (required) he had to go through because of his psychotic episode. To help him to make all of his appointments, evaluations, etc. and get everything dismissed.
He had been released from the hospital and in spite of arrangements for housing, ended up on the street, having lost everything but the clothes on his back. They just seem to release them to the street, heavily medicated and stupidly think they can manage, not only to stay on their meds, but to fend for themselves. He is an adult, but just barely. He was in terrible shape.
My husband came with me originally, but had to return to work. He is in contact by phone. He is also paying for everything to keep us going here. We had been making tremendous progress, from where we started. Things were going better and better and hopes were high. I just haven't told him of the recent deterioration of the situation, hoping that things would turn around, or I could arrange a room or something, before my husband gets here for the holidays. He will not tolerate the present situation.
Now, with the slow return (with a paycheck) to heavy pot smoking, and the difficulty in taking care of himself, that's proving harder and harder to realize. Everyone advertising for a roommate wants someone clean, responsible, and usually non-smoking. He is non of the above. The only thing positive I can report is that he has improved tremendously mentallly, (due to getting off the meds and on the niacin)and even got a job, which he is still managing, but not much more than that. I feel like a mom with a little kid, that I have to get off to school every morning. And who comes home for lunch. No progress with anything else.
I have tried putting my foot down, but I would have to have him forcibly removed, and then we are back to square one again. He would lose his job. All of it for nothing! And he truly can't understand what the problem is. He is going to his job everyday, not bothering anyone......that's his mindset.
Hi Kuya, Nurdl, Emily. Yes, I definitely needed a good cry. Something I will do almost anything (especially drinking) to avoid. Don't know why. You are all also right about the sugar. It goes against everything I believe and usually practice, but I, too, have been downing a large amount of chocolate to avoid the booze. Big mistake. If only I could let myself cry. Don't know why I can't just let myself do it. It makes me feel weak and ashamed.
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