Newbies Nest
Hello!
Good morning, all!
New Day, I am so glad you are in this with me. I made it through day 1,2 and 3 (with each being its own kind of miracle and with each having its moments where it could easily have gone the other way). I have been eating a lot and consciously trying to let go of things that upset or bother me. It is a new feeling to be not allowing the feelings that I am not loved enough, or liked enough, or supported enough go, go, go. I am focusing instead on two facts: First, even if NO ONE likes me, loves me or supports me, drinking won't change that fact. Also, if I love myself (which I am beginning to believe I do), then it makes no sense for me to drink.
I am sorry that I don't recall names on here well yet. I want to also congratulate the person with 30 days! And, I want to say thank you to the person who posted the snowy photo - gorgeous. And, I again want to thank everyone for their posts. I am picking up so many bits big and small that are helping in my weaker moments. IWhen I have already started my reply, I cannot seem to figure out how to go back to the thread and remind myself of names and who said what so I can reply more help more personally without losing the reply I started.
Anyway, please forgive me and will not give up just because I haven't sorted the technology of all this out yet!
Today, I am tired - so I need to take care on that. Also, a huge trigger for me is SUNDAYS, because Monday is coming and it seems with it all the stress and difficulty dealing with some people and situations that come with the work and school week. I know this. I am trying to focus instead on the people and situations that are pleasant and good for me. They are certainly there too, but I can take one slight from another kid's parent (who "can't" make it to my son's birthday party or whatnot) and focus on that to the point where I feel I need to drink.
This is so strange, trying to tune out the negatives that often drive me to drink. It is so odd that I drank to escape "feeling bad or feeling rejected".
Hello!
Good morning, all!
New Day, I am so glad you are in this with me. I made it through day 1,2 and 3 (with each being its own kind of miracle and with each having its moments where it could easily have gone the other way). I have been eating a lot and consciously trying to let go of things that upset or bother me. It is a new feeling to be not allowing the feelings that I am not loved enough, or liked enough, or supported enough go, go, go. I am focusing instead on two facts: First, even if NO ONE likes me, loves me or supports me, drinking won't change that fact. Also, if I love myself (which I am beginning to believe I do), then it makes no sense for me to drink.
I am sorry that I don't recall names on here well yet. I want to also congratulate the person with 30 days! And, I want to say thank you to the person who posted the snowy photo - gorgeous. And, I again want to thank everyone for their posts. I am picking up so many bits big and small that are helping in my weaker moments. IWhen I have already started my reply, I cannot seem to figure out how to go back to the thread and remind myself of names and who said what so I can reply more help more personally without losing the reply I started.
Anyway, please forgive me and will not give up just because I haven't sorted the technology of all this out yet!
Today, I am tired - so I need to take care on that. Also, a huge trigger for me is SUNDAYS, because Monday is coming and it seems with it all the stress and difficulty dealing with some people and situations that come with the work and school week. I know this. I am trying to focus instead on the people and situations that are pleasant and good for me. They are certainly there too, but I can take one slight from another kid's parent (who "can't" make it to my son's birthday party or whatnot) and focus on that to the point where I feel I need to drink.
This is so strange, trying to tune out the negatives that often drive me to drink. It is so odd that I drank to escape "feeling bad or feeling rejected".
There is no way we can remember everyone without little cheat tricks. I love that you sound so positive. :thumbs: That will go a long way in the next few days! :goodluck: 
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