Hey all, been so busy and had hardly any time to drop in.
Got caught a bit off guard earlier. It was almost as if I had "forgot" that I had quit drinking. The thought of coming home, closing my door and drinking wine alone tonight entered my head and I got a rush of excitement. Then I was like "oh shit, that's right...I don't do that any more" and I'm not gonna lie, a sense of disappointment/sadness/anger came over me! Managed to curb the feelings by reminding myself that I dont drink by repeating it over and over again in my head and by also switching my thoughts to the nasty side of it and how horrible my life had became because of it.
I had been feeling so strong and confident with it all too. Them WHAM! I suddenly felt very vulnerable. Scared me tbh- what if I had been having a bad or stressful day - would I have been able to control those thoughts? :-/
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