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Hello all...first post, 4:30pm New Years Eve, Australia...the worst time and place for an Alcoholic...I will fail today....that's what it's like sometimes isn't it. I may not always be here as a rock for everyone as I'm not a rock.
But I am looking forward to sharing our realities....I accepted that I was an Alcoholic about 9 years ago at the age of 25. Less than a seventh of the days since I have been sober. This is my reality at the moment.
I have been off antabuse for 3 weeks and have had 2 non-drinking days. I was optomistic at first but now the anxiety is taking hold once again. I will always be a drinker...and it will probably get me in the end but I know that it doesn't have to be that way! My thoughts are too manic, and beautiful and terrifying at the same time to stay in one place...to be a master of one thing.
I am sorry that this is where I am today but I know that my thoughts will be different tomorrow.
ps....I'm usually not this narcissistic.
Phan Anton.
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