Hi Everyone
Did lots of long driving stretches today (idle mind had lots of daydreams/cravings/scenarios of getting a bottle of red wine). It is funny because there was no way I was going to pull off the tollway (in the snow and cold) and buy a bottle of wine. I don't even want a glass of wine. Yet I had to keep telling myself "no way". I must admit that I've been tired this week, not sleeping well and had a bit of a headache - would love the mind/body numbing passing out. Actually, no - I wouldn't love that. I'm still having the disturbed sleep that I had when drunk. I've eaten more chocolate and sugar last week than I think I did in all of 2012. I can use a nudge in getting myself down to the healthclub. Anyone else here old, overweight and lazy that can give me a push? Intellectually, I know it would help me feel better, keep my head straight and help me sleep . . . yet here I sit on the couch with keyboard. Since hubby is away this week, I've also been real lax with the housework, dishes, mail, everything. The house looks like a depressed, disturbed person lives here - because one does!!! I have been forcing myself to go out and be with people I care about (that don't drink), so I'm using the excuse that when I am home, I'm totally spent. Not sure why the low energy - other than depression. I'm really rambling here. Sorry that I'm still in the "ME-ME-ME-all about ME" stage. Just want to thank you all for being here - I know someone is listening. I did not drink today. Day 8.
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