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Greetings to All,
Dear Snapdragon - way to go with 44 days!! So proud of you!! Yes, it is fabulous when our brain begins to heal and, as you say so well, alcohol isn't our first and foremost thought of every day. :threesome:
Last night I was thinking that in the beginning of recovery from alcoholism I thought I was losing something that I needed and wanted; something that was very important to me. I could hardly imagine living life without it. I felt the sadness that comes with any significant loss. And I felt somewhat angry that I was required to abstain from something that others could freely partake of. It was a sense of deprivation.
Now, four months later, I realize that I have gained so very much. I feel the joy that comes with an abundance of the simple things in life. Real joy!!
Early on in recovery I began to save the money that I would otherwise spend on alcohol. Wow! Did it add up in a hurry! Now I am using that money to improve the landscaping in our back yard. It feels great to dig up the dirt, improve the soil, choose plants from the nursery, plant them, and then sit on our deck with a glass of iced tea and enjoy the beauty of nature.
It also feels great to wake up in the morning with a clear head and heart that sings. Hmm... I was so afraid that I was going to be missing out on all of the fun in life. If the things that I "lost" are considered to be fun (being sick all of the time, crawling to bed because I am unable to walk - and vomiting along the way, lying, sneaking, and hating myself, to name a few), then I wonder what misery must feel like??... :question2:
Snapdragon;1505508 wrote: It's great to read so many positive posts here and I wanted to share that finally at 44 days I am feeling so much stronger, alcohol isn't my first and foremost thought of every day - in fact I can get through pretty much the entire day on occasions without thinking about it much - a massive step forward for me...
Greetings to All,
Dear Snapdragon - way to go with 44 days!! So proud of you!! Yes, it is fabulous when our brain begins to heal and, as you say so well, alcohol isn't our first and foremost thought of every day. :threesome:
Last night I was thinking that in the beginning of recovery from alcoholism I thought I was losing something that I needed and wanted; something that was very important to me. I could hardly imagine living life without it. I felt the sadness that comes with any significant loss. And I felt somewhat angry that I was required to abstain from something that others could freely partake of. It was a sense of deprivation.
Now, four months later, I realize that I have gained so very much. I feel the joy that comes with an abundance of the simple things in life. Real joy!!
Early on in recovery I began to save the money that I would otherwise spend on alcohol. Wow! Did it add up in a hurry! Now I am using that money to improve the landscaping in our back yard. It feels great to dig up the dirt, improve the soil, choose plants from the nursery, plant them, and then sit on our deck with a glass of iced tea and enjoy the beauty of nature.
It also feels great to wake up in the morning with a clear head and heart that sings. Hmm... I was so afraid that I was going to be missing out on all of the fun in life. If the things that I "lost" are considered to be fun (being sick all of the time, crawling to bed because I am unable to walk - and vomiting along the way, lying, sneaking, and hating myself, to name a few), then I wonder what misery must feel like??... :question2:
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