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[rooniferd]

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Hi Nest buddies! This is a repeat post from the Roll Call thread.

I just want to thank Byrdie and eveyone for the wonderful hat! As many of you know, this is not my first 30-day celebration. I have collected four hats to wear on different occasions now! Sometimes it takes falling off and getting back up many times before we finally get it - before we finally say enough is enough. I really hope and pray that I'm finally at this point.

31 days ago, I knelt down in my living room and had a long heart-to-heart talk with God and my mother (she passed away almost eight years ago). I asked forgiveness, and I also asked for a sign to show me how to stay sober - not stay sober in spurts, but FOR GOOD. I cried and prayed harder. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not a terribly religious person, but I felt something that day.

The definition of insanity kept coming into my head. I am doing the same things over and over again and expecting the same results. I'm doing the same things over and over again and expecting to get sober.

That's it! I have to change my plan. It's not working!

So, I started pouring over my memories of all the posts and books I've read about getting sober. And then it hit me....

Spirituality. It's missing from my life. I'm missing that fundamental connection to nature. I'm so busy worried about work and school that I'm not taking the time to explore the beauty around me. Without spirituality, I've just been a shell of a person. And even worse, I've replaced it with drinking for many years.

I know that only time will tell, but I'm really hoping this is the missing piece. There might be other missing pieces (I imagine there are), but I think spirituality is a huge one. I've started going to the Universalist Unitarian church here (it's very liberal), and I'm making more time for walks and hikes. I am waking up with the sunrise and thanking God for another day of sobriety. I am spending more time with my dogs. I spent an amazing weekend in the mountains last weekend, and it was so good for my soul.

OK folks, enough rambling from me.....

My next goal is 48 days. That will be the longest I've been sober in my entire adult life!

[broken halo]

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Hi guys. Well done Piper, enjoy your relaxing day, you deserve it! Well done your 7 noodle

It's good to se everyone so positive. I feel I have kind of lost the plot (literally!) with you guys, but I'll try to catch up. Feeling a lot better today, managed to clean the house, have a bath AND shower ( that's how minging I felt!)

Put on one of my best dresses, did my make up and went out and drove my car to the recycling plant to get rid of all those damn bottles. I always think if you make the effort to look good it does make you feel better.

The nice lady from AA phoned to check on me, I am meeting her to go to a meeting in about an hour and a half. I tapered over the weekend with wine because I was so scared so this is me back to day 1, along with dear pal DD. I feel a sense of relief about reaching out to AA and taking that first step. I also feel so grateful to all of you for all the support. BH is back, and more determined than ever!

[gambler]

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Good hour fellow Sunday Nesters

noodle;1568019 wrote: Gambler - how's the film? I fell asleep during it
Dunno.. the first half was great but then I fell asleep too LOL .. I have it for a week though so thats good news.

Clicket;1568056 wrote: I was wondering...where does a newbie post their history, story etc. ?
I guess you could post it in your own thread here in the New to MWO Forum. Thats where I would put it anyways.

piper123;1568057 wrote: Today is my 100th day.

Nice going Piper !

Right on Cat with your two weeks ! Your after my heart with the Yogurt ( frozen but still ) oh and the strawberries might be a new addition to my Yogurt fetish I hope your 3rd week smothes out for you .. dont see why it shouldnt though.

Minstar .. I actually like the gloomy days once and a while for the weekends. I feel like I can relax more when its not so sunny and warm out. Its like I have a responsibility to take advantage of nice days LOL. Once and a while its time to chill.

Kailey;1568061 wrote: Good morning! What a sweet thing to sleep like a baby and wake up refreshed.

Funny you should say that Kailey. I have been sleeping all night without waking up for over a week now. It was getting old waking up at 3-4am every freaking night for the past 8 years ! ( mostly to take a leak due to fluid intake the night before ) Your sounding good Girl !

rooniferd;1568081 wrote: 31 days ago, I knelt down in my living room and had a long heart-to-heart talk with God and my mother (she passed away almost eight years ago). I asked forgiveness, and I also asked for a sign to show me how to stay sober - not stay sober in spurts, but FOR GOOD. I cried and prayed harder. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not a terribly religious person, but I felt something that day.

What a great Post ! I just saw your 31 day in the roll call thread and was in the middle of a congrats post for you when my browser started acting wonkey. Im not religious but very spiritual as well however there is something about Praying or whatever you want to call it that has merit. I could go on and on about this but its not really the place for it.

Again Very good Job on your Hat !

~ Dave

[3June2013]

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Morning nesters! I'm away camping, checking in from my iPhone so bear with me !

First off Happy Thanksgiving to my Canadian friends! This year I have so much to be grateful for. A lot stems from being AF and that's totally because of MWO !

Rooniferd your post spoke to me. I am not religious in the church sort of way
but I am spiritual.i need to nourish my love of nature, if I don't get outside every day I feel down. I also need to exercise daily. Being outside soothes my soul . Yoga has taught me to quiet my mind and tune into my body. Thanks for the reminder that this is a big piece in our strive for wholeness.

Nesters enjoy your Sunday. I hope you woke up hangover free, full of joy for the day ahead . But if not, why not start fresh today? We are here to help!

[Byrdlady]

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Good Morning!
Wow, go to bed early one night and I missed some awards!! Really, whoever sees it, feel free to jump in and make those awards!! It's a group effort!!

Noodle snuck in with her 7 days! Well, good news travels fast around here, so nesters, please join me in a group MOON for Noodle!! Drop your pants for NOODLE!!!

:moon:

This should make your little avatar jump around even more!! We are so proud of you....of all the days that I have done, those first 7 are without question, the hardest. I hope this is just the beginning of a new phase (moon joke) of your life! Keep shining!!

Rooni, that was a wonderful commencement speech, I KNOW that you will connect all the dots and continue on this way....it took me a few tries, but even I got it after a while!! Thank you for taking the time to write that...those words are golden!! We are all right beside you in this fight....and we are winning!! (nice to be on THIS side of it!!)
:goodtime:

Piper123.....around here, 100 days is cause for celebration!!! Please make room on your mantle for this prestigious award!!

:finger:

It's The Bird!!! This entitles user to flip off AL anytime of day or night! This is for showing AL who's large and in charge of her own fate!!! Take THAT, AL!!!!

BH, Great to see you, we will be here all week, don't hesitate to call on us if you need us!

Gambler, what an awesome story. That was nice of you to chip in on the pizza...(!B*tch) Dang, no good deed goes unpunished! But YOU know the truth, and the truth always wins the day. I'm so happy with your new relationship with you...sounds like it's going GREAT!!

Lav, you have had a rough summer and fall....rain 90% of the time....but you seem to make your own sunshine and you make our world a better place! Good luck with your pile today...eheheheh.....hugs to the chickens! :chick:

Go out and make it a great day, everyone! It's our choice!! Hugs to all, Byrdie

[Elvis]

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Good job noodle, rooni, and piper!

I woke up today feeling a little out of it, but it's probably a combination of staying up late, working hard, and Day 5 blahs. I called my wife just to hear her voice and that helped a lot. Gotta get going, another busy day ahead!

[broken halo]

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Hi guys, it' been a long and tiring day, but day one is almost over. I had a massive wake up call over AA on my first visit tonight, I am actually now sorry I left it so long. I was so pleasantly surprised.

The guy gave me a copy of 'Living Sober' going to make a start on that tonight. I hope everyone in the Nest is well and safe :l

[available]

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Hi guys and i'm back. The weekend was hectic and i was and still am exhausted. We had a lovely night and the strippers were great, nice bodies i must say but there seemed to be a lack of appendage. I was thinking maybe steroids lol. We then went to a nightclub that was full of 20 yr olds with doof doof music and way too old for that one. Onwards and upwards and exhausted we then went to the casino till 3am.

the big question now, did i drink, yes i had 4 drinks all night. Why well yes i wanted to i suppose but did i enjoy them, not really. Am i disappointed in myself, no not at all. did i crave for a drink yesterday like i thought i would, no and thank god for that. So i am proud of myself even though i did have a few drinks, i remember absolutely everything. I looked after my daughters whereas before they would have been looking after their drunken mother.

Im not sure if I am back to Day 1 or not now so i think i will stop counting. But I am still here and I am not going anywhere anytime soon. I know AL could pull me down that hole again and i am not going there again.

thank you all so much for your support, i do appreciate it more than you guys will ever know and I hope i have not let anyone down.

Now i have so much reading to catch up on. Its not worth being off here and missing out on the action.

[MinStar]

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Hey nesters! Popping in to say goodnight. Xxx

[available]

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Welcome Clicket and you are in such a good place. All the best in your journey.

Piper well done, 100 days something to be very very proud of.

Min hell and glad you are finally getting Winter and we are trying to get some heat happening. Melbourne has four seasons in one day. It is not unknown for it to be 35 degrees here and dropping 15 degrees in a few hours. My daughters hens day/night was just lovely and woke up the next day to rain and cold. I am going to try and put a pic up, god technology kills me sometimes.

I am having today off to recup and my mother comes this weekend for a few months so more stress but i love her and she is 77 so patience patience patience. She loves her wine or two at night time but that wont be me and she will be fine with that. Shes a good old stick but stubborn as and cranky ha ha.

[broken halo]

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Available, I was wondering how the hen night went. I am glad you managed to restrict yourself to four and it didn't trigger you the next day. Shame about those disappointing appendages! It's good to have you back :l

[available]

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Thanks BH i feel great and i felt great not waking with a hangover on the weekend but i know i need to be on my toes.

Can anyone tell me how to put a pic up. It tells me i changed my avatar but not showing but maybe it takes a bit to do. If it does come up it is of me and my beautiful girls and please note who does not have a drink in their hand, that would be me. Might frame this pic as it is a first!

[Cat Belle]

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Ok everyone-needing some help here. I have thought that day 14 would be easier than this. In fact the last few days have benn awful. Most at the point of 4pm and after. Cravings, mind talk, crying...I literally have to jump and go outside, or run and eat a donut...or two. I'm very restless. I can't go to sleep at night, and when I do it's for no more than a few hours. I feel like I may jump out of my skin.

My stepson is coming home tonight from his mothers house, after having been there for a week. My stress level is steady going up. It is an understatement to say that there is always drama where he or his mother are involved. He manipulates and lies as though he can't help himself. It's as though he would rather tell 10 lies about minor things, and stack them on each other, when telling the truth would be easier and likely not end in punishment. I just don't understand it. His grades have gone in the toilet since staring to spend more time with her, he has been suspended from football because of grades, and has missed two days of work and been late while at her house. He is the youngest of my husbands three boys.

The older two were just recently (July) released from jail for armed robbery, committed by the two of them together...at a pharmacy.....for drugs.....to sell. And that was just the cherry on the top of the trouble that they have been in. It is very hard for me to understand how this happened. Knowing my husband, how he loves them, and that they were taught right from wrong.

Oh god, I am rambling. I think I was trying to give a little insight to my life- BLAAHHHH! This has been pretty much full throttle for 4 years now, only now I can't drink to avoid it / cope, however you want to phrase it.

Ok.....breathe

[available]

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Hi Cat, sounds like you have your hands full. Anytime i was stressed it was straight to the bottle for me also. Now i seem to yell more which doesnt really solve anything but makes me feel better.

How old is the step son that is coming back if i may ask? I have a son home that has gotten off ICE and he also has ADHD and is a compulsive liar. It is so frustrating when i say to him not to lie and he does. I just ignore him now and tell him anytime he wants to be honest i will listen. He is seeing a great counsellor which has helped. He has rules and boundaries that i have set for him and he knows i will kick him out of the house if he does not respect these.

The older two, well unless they want to change, like us with AL then they wont. Sometimes it doesnt matter what a parent does the children will go along their own merry way. Sad but true.

Keep breathing and be strong. There comes a time where you have to say that you cant do it anymore as hard as it is.

Thinking of you Cat

[Cat Belle]

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Hey available,

He is 16. He's currently grounded at our house, but his mother does not enforce that. This is the first time in months that he has been able to stay at her house. The two jail birds are living with her so he was not allowed to spend the night. But we got tired of the constant fight, and said fine, go. He will be 17 in December, one year from being considered a legal adult. If this is what you want to do with your life, have at it. Before he was really going down there, when he was busy with school, football, work, he didn't have much time to spend there which was good. He was passing his classes, starting in football, and working sat and Sunday. Not to say we didn't still have to stay on him about schoolwork, but he was passing.....now it has gone downhill fast.

So now the " retraining" begins. She allows him to cuss, profusely, and at her. And the rules at her house seem to be the easiest path is the one to take...I.e. Do what you want...

Arrrggghhhh! Why can't I just be a normal person? Have a glass of wine to relax?

Damn it all!!!!!!!