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[Londoner]

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After my relapse on the weekend, I have come to realise most of us on here are better at giving out advice than taking advice.

I have glossed over my own problems for too long.

I need to break the cycle.

That means getting myself a new hobby and becoming more social. I have always been nervous around new people.

I also need to achieve something in life. If I do not, I will have a few good weeks before I realise I have not progressed and hit the bottle on a night out again.

I am living this problem in silence. No one knows what I get up to at the weekends. I use white lies to cover up my problems.

Before I know it I will be 30, and if I have not got my own life by then God knows how I will feel. I even researched my local AA group today. Considering popping along some time soon.

[Willow23]

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Way to go Dottie and MyLuck! Dottie, I'm glad you're feeling better.

Londoner, I relapsed at the weekend too, sucks. Let's keep at it though!

Lovely, I'm getting a sun symbol. I already have a seahorse on my back (to represent water), a daisy on my left foot (earth), stars on my right foot (air) and this final one will represent fire. I was reading about sun symbols today actually and it's also a symbol of new beginnings so it seems quite apt!

[Loveless]

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that sounds really nice, and appropriate too. I have a heart lock and key on my left upper arm with my moms date of birth/death, a joker card on my right foot, spade on my left foot, doctor who time lord seal (im a nerd) on my right shoulder blade, capricorn zodiac sign on my right leg, music note tribal on my left leg. the cherry blossom branch im getting is for my grandfather.

[Willow23]

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Wow, you have loads! I love the look of sleeves but I'd never be brave enough for that!

[istym4me]

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Londoner
Always easier looking in from the outside.

DTD Thanks.

I have to get a few more things done. TTFN.

[Loveless]

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Nah, me either. lol I would never get sleeves or any on my hands/neck/face thats just too much

[Willow23]

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Urgh. I ate a load of Haribo and now I have a sugar headache! I really need to cut down all the junk I'm eating!

[Loveless]

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I alsoo need to start eating better. i dont really need to eat healthier though just more. I havent really been eating that much lately..

[Willow23]

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Yeah, you definitely need to make sure you eat plenty, it'll really help with the cravings. Maybe that's why you've been finding it difficult to stop too. Besides the actual addiction I mean.

[little beagle]

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Dottie I am so proud of you. Being sober is the best Christmas present you can give yourself.
MyLuck congratulations on 30 af days. It is so wonderful to see you doing so great.
:wave:

[Cocoflo]

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Londoner, Loveless & Willow, Do you mind if I join in? I'm on Day 2 after a bad weekend.

Londoner, I can relate. I think that I drank to become more social as I am also anxious/insecure when meeting new people. Ironic thing, the more I drink, the more isolated I become. When I drink, I physically don't want to be too close so that they can't smell it, as I'm generally drinking when I shouldn't be.

I'm trying to fill my days with exercise, work and activities to avoid the downtime and thoughts about drinking.

Have a good night!
cocoflo

[Loveless]

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Welcome cocoflo! congratulations for day 2! i am not doing so well right now, but that will change soon

[Cocoflo]

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Thank you Loveless - love your signature by the way! Very true....unfortunately.

[Londoner]

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Welcome aboard Coco. Sounds so much like me - I become less social, the more I drink. There is a sweet spot where I am very social, but that blends seamlessly into a dark place soon after - where I become someone else completely and do strange things.

I actually thought I was going to have a heart attack this weekend - I drank so much alcohol and did so many stimulants over a 36 hour period at the weekend. The problem is the two mixed cancel each other out, so I do more and more of each. No wonder I feel so crap.

Stupid. Thing is I met a really nice girl out partying. But I don't wanna further it any more as I know it will mean partying more with her in the future. So, another reason alcohol causes more isolation on my part.

[Loveless]

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Yes ive used everyy excuse to drink in the book. I also thought i might be able to moderate, but its impossible for me to do that, I am still drinking right noww because i have seizures if i go through withdrawal, so i am waiting for my doctors appointmentt, trying to drink a little less each night. trying, anyway....plus i am also a recovering opiate addict and i smoke weed everyday becausei have rheumatoid arthritis.