More welcome here and stopping AL is doable but one day at a time, one step at a time and always remember the mantra to yourself "I DO NOT DRINK". Today I do not drink. I am sorry about the loss of your brother, my brother was two years older than me and died of alcoholism. I thought it would never happen to me, i did not drink as much as him, I was a functioning alcoholic with a family. I now know it could and will eventually happen to me.
Pav, I have not had a drinking dream yet i wake in the morning thinking i had drank the night before and then it takes me a minute to realise I didn't. Such a relief in that one. Today is Saturday here and so nice to wake without a hangover even if I did wake at 6am. Well a 15 minute sleep in is better than nothing.
Love, so glad you are doing well and spending quality time with your son. Dont worry about xmas, just one day at a time. I had thoughts of New Years yesterday and what my plan was to not drink so I will be thinking about that one. I think I have had one sober New Years ever and most of the other times I have not made it to midnight as have been passed out drunk.
Humble I am thinking of you today, you can do this and you are strong enough to toast your loved ones without AL. Think of how proud they would be of you and what you are becoming. Hugs.
Over, i need my quit buddy to be here with me. The thoughts will pass and keep popping those pills. Luckily I have not had any cravings this time just a strong desire to have a glass which will lead to a bottle or two and a hangover and the shakes and the regret that I failed yet again and another DAY 1 to contend with and remorse and shame and guilt. Think of all the bad time with AL, were there any good times really? My last bout of drinking, my son said to me "mum you smell like a brewery and you are pissed". God the shame I felt and I was actually going to ask my other son for a drink, well I went back and hid in my hole and thought "no more can I do this to myself or my children". I hold on to these thoughts, they keep me going each day.
Gotta dont hope to do it tomorrow, just do it and congrats on getting through the day, that is all we can do.
Hey London, sorry you feel down and cranky. Know the feeling well atm but you have posted such positive posts and I have followed your ups and downs. This is just a bit of a down for you. You dont want to drink like I dont. I am a recluse too at the moment but that will pass. Just stay safe and post on here. Being a recluse is better than pouring AL down your throat.
Going to make a coffee and hang some washing out. I love being hangover free on a Saturday so i can procrastinate on what I want to do. I do know I wont be drinking.
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