Newbies Nest

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I tried to avoid the situation by leaving early, but I guess it'd only have taken a wobbly moment to go another way. So maybe I shouldn't be chancing things like that so early on unless its unavoidable. Thanks ava.

[Byrdlady]

Evening all!
Well I got it all done today! Thats a good feeling, I am ready for Thanksgiving!

I was doing a bit of browsing thru the archives of MWO and I saw so many names and wondered how those folks were doing....some I remember doing so well but wandered off only to come back later having fallen. It prompted me to ask myself "WHY does this happen?" Im sure there are many reasons but I boiled it down to this....We must make our sobriety our #1 priority each and every day. It happenss when we get lazy and complacent...relapse becomes inevitable. When we don't stay connected to our source of strength, we lose ours. We forget just how hard we worked initially and over time, let best practices slide. For me, checking in here is a small price to pay for all I have received. I got my life back.
Just wanted to get that off my chest, I was really bothered by all the names that I remember so fondly.
Hope everyone has a peaceful evening! Byrdie

[abcowboy]

Hi all! Great to see all the posts! Been a tough weekend for the old cowboy, been thinking of drinking a lot with the ex and daughter, still hanging in there by a thread, but my Higher Power tells me to hang in there, so I will..

[MossRose]

Night nesters. It's dark and quiet here. I can see a few of you have been struggling. Hang in there. I had one of the saddest nights of my life tonight. My mom and I had a very large disagreement about something very important. And I realized that my family is all about saving face and keeping secrets. There is true love in my family. But damn, we sure do work hard to make sure that we look good on the outside. I'm exhausted and just needed to check in. Peace to you all.

[NoSugar]

How come you weren't on here getting some help, Mr. ABC? That's one of the best features of an online peer support group! It's good to hear that you made it, in any case, and didn't give up the health and peace you've gained. :hug:

[NoSugar]

Your box is full, Moss. It wasn't too private, anyway, just xx :hug:.

[meshellrn]

Hello,

I am back. Unfortunetly, like they say, alcoholism is a disease that does not get better. It usually gets worse. I slid back into drinking wine every night. Every Monday, is say, I will not drink during the week, then only to find a reason good or bad to drink. I am drinking box wine a few a week. I am starting to feel some liver issues and have gained so much weight. I have decided to give it up completely. I would like to go a year. I will log in on the daily newbies numbers. thanks for being here!!! wish me love and luck.

[MossRose]

Thanks NS. Cleaned out my inbox. I'm bereft tonight. I can't believe that I am being asked to keep up appearances even now. My brother is dying. He is estranged from his children. When does the time come to stop making excuses, and start making amends? OMG - I just don't think I can deal with this.

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Hi meshellrn!

[MossRose]

mesh - I wish you more than love and luck. I with you success. Glad you are here. Stay strong. We're by your side.

[Byrdlady]

Welcome back, Meshell!
So glad to see you are ready to reclaim your life! It is a sad reality that this is one disease that doeasnt improve over time unless the cause of the problem is removed. The only question I have for you is why do you have the time limit of one year? This is such a powerful disease, I found the only way to beat it is to take the option of drinking off the table for good. No more! Enough is enough. Like a bad science experiment we keep trying over and over but we dont change the one thing that is causing the problem. We have all seen so many folks give up AL for X amount of time and the moment they reintroduce it, it overtakes them again (Robin Williams and Phillip Seymore Hoffman come to mind). So my tweak to your wonderful plan would be to vow to live your life AF and that is that. How do we do that? Its an awful lot like eating an elephant....you eat it one bite at a time! Welcome back! Byrdie

[NoSugar]

I just don't think I can deal with this.

No matter what it is, Moss, you can handle it as the strong and sober woman you now are. You can't change these events or other people's behavior but you are in charge of your responses and actions. Hang in there, Friend.

[Byrdlady]

Moss, remember we have chat now...do you want to "talk about it." I can meet you if you want to get it off your chest! As you know, MY family is nuts! Hang on, no matter what!! B

[meshellrn]

Thanks so much for the support.it really means alot. I do know that it is something I can not have.the alcohol. I'll take your advice byrdlady

[See the Light]

welcome back meshell...alcohol can be so tricky..and surely is so progressive..I felt like I was in the middle stages and heading for worse fast before I had my wake up moment (there is a good link below to see where you think you are)....but its not too late..you are in a great place here..stick around and let's kick AL's progressive slide together

http://www.choosehelp.com/topics/alcoholism/alcoholism-it-always-gets-worse-progressive

MR- sorry to hear that..you have every right to be angry...but you can deal with this..try to think about last time hardship came up in your life and how you got by without AL..It probably wasn't easy, but you could do it..take a break and do something that cheers you up for a bit....then come back to your problems when you are feeling better..hang in there