In the past month I've told some co-workers that I don't drink anymore. Early on I had some apprehension about these types of disclosures, mostly about whether it would lead to questions when my confidence and uncertainty were at odds. I'm comfortable now that it flows as part of conversation and what feels like a normal by-product of time. I got a few "why?" or "really?" comments but no seismic reactions that a few easy responses didn't put to rest. In fact one friend forgot, and I reminded him at a dinner this week, when in front of 10 people the server asked if there was anyone not drinking? Just me that evening and it made me laugh actually since what months ago seemed would be odd isn't, and nobody else really cares or notices all that much. I don't really care what or how much people drink, only that I don't. I'm not stepping on anybody's buzz, so even if someone has an opinion, comment or response to my not drinking then so what, don't step on my brain buzz.
I've got a lot of travel ahead and will be out of pocket but looking forward to it. Mostly business but all warmer weather that I will savor. The last stop is beach time with family so my mobile access better be working. What seems like my last great sober hurdle is the beachy vacation where palm trees, Bob Marley and a tiki hut bar would render a huge drunken bender in the past. Unless a funnel is duct taped to my face, no booze will be going down this throat again.
LavB - 7 months is great and big congrats to you! I'm a little envious, and if not for one (lousy) day in November, I'd be celebrating that milestone with you. I look at this journey as an accumulation of time and a cumulative effort, but still count my consecutive days to have a sober birthday date to mark. Probably true for many that we take a few detours before the final stick.
Feeling much gratitude on all fronts that I didn't have and couldn't achieve until I was sober. We're here because we finally get it and are very fortunate in that sense. If I hadn't landed in the nest with a resounding thud when I did, and left to my own devices, I'd still be back to all my old vices and made zero progress. Life happens now so keep at it!
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