morning nesters
Well last day in Bangkok and head home on a flight that leaves at midnight so since i woke at 6am and wont sleep till on the plane (if you call that sleep) then i am not going to be real friendly when we touch down in melbourne. The kids are missing me, the dogs are missing me so i will give that about 2 days at home before they all wish i was away again!
This holiday has been so different from the last when i was about 120 days sober. i was still in deprivation mode and my favourite past time was staring at people drinking and feeling jealous, why them and not me and now i figure it was probably due to 99% of the people not being alcoholics like i am. Today i can quite happily go shopping and enjoy a cold non al drink when i get back as damn it is humid and hot here. Mum has probably had 3 glasses of wine the entire holiday and i keep telling her it is okay to drink in front of me but i know she is so proud of me that she doesnt want to. I know i dont need to drink AT her anymore. There is no more anger and bitterness towards my mum, blaming her for how my life turned out. i am just sorry i put her through so much hell but she loves me unconditionally.
Dutch i love those days when i have such a burst of energy and can see the results but mine are pretty few and far between now although in saying that i never did anything with a hangover except feel sorry for myself in bed until i felt like getting my next drink in the afternoon.
SF proud of you girl at the wedding. Another first done and dusted and that is such a good feeling. The firsts are always the hardest and the most worrisome.
Welcome kairos there is no place like being home in the nest. i still have my tail feathers so no leaving for me anytime soon.
Well best get moving. If i have to repeat myself ONE MORE TIME! i hope deafness does not run in the family as damn i feel sorry for my kids already.
Take care
Well last day in Bangkok and head home on a flight that leaves at midnight so since i woke at 6am and wont sleep till on the plane (if you call that sleep) then i am not going to be real friendly when we touch down in melbourne. The kids are missing me, the dogs are missing me so i will give that about 2 days at home before they all wish i was away again!
This holiday has been so different from the last when i was about 120 days sober. i was still in deprivation mode and my favourite past time was staring at people drinking and feeling jealous, why them and not me and now i figure it was probably due to 99% of the people not being alcoholics like i am. Today i can quite happily go shopping and enjoy a cold non al drink when i get back as damn it is humid and hot here. Mum has probably had 3 glasses of wine the entire holiday and i keep telling her it is okay to drink in front of me but i know she is so proud of me that she doesnt want to. I know i dont need to drink AT her anymore. There is no more anger and bitterness towards my mum, blaming her for how my life turned out. i am just sorry i put her through so much hell but she loves me unconditionally.
Dutch i love those days when i have such a burst of energy and can see the results but mine are pretty few and far between now although in saying that i never did anything with a hangover except feel sorry for myself in bed until i felt like getting my next drink in the afternoon.
SF proud of you girl at the wedding. Another first done and dusted and that is such a good feeling. The firsts are always the hardest and the most worrisome.
Welcome kairos there is no place like being home in the nest. i still have my tail feathers so no leaving for me anytime soon.
Well best get moving. If i have to repeat myself ONE MORE TIME! i hope deafness does not run in the family as damn i feel sorry for my kids already.
Take care
I came home and had a good dinner, and am putting my kids to bed. I will look for something sweet when they are down - and remember how much I would regret entertaining the beast.
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