Celebrating my 60 days today, and pretty amazed I have made it this far. I think the past week has reaffirmed my desire to stay AF even more so. I constantly felt depressed drinking, I would wake up the next day and not want to do things, I would just keep going through life feeling the blahs. There would be periods of time I would listen to something inspirational or motivational and get some momentum, it would alwayd lead to drinking less eventually (probably my brain trying to help me make better decisions while my mood was elevated). I would quickly fall off the boat and stop listening and start drinking again. This went on for five years. One quit I actually received a trip to a Tony Robbins seminar as a free gift, it was at a very difficult time in my life and really needed some motivation. After the seminar I stopped drinking for a number of days. Unfortunately my weding was coming up and I had a bachelor party in my honor. One drink led to many and I was right back on the alcoholism bandwagon. I never quit for any substantial length of time, enjoyed a drink, and contniued my quit, I constantly want to remember this.
People on here kept telling me that I would feel better, my mood would fluctuate and to take it a day at a time, and I am so glad I believed them. I would have days of feeling better followed by day of feeling like doing nothing. I peronally did not attribute this to AL but posting on here at least had me curious it was the cause. Since my birthdfay 8 days ago I have not had one gloomy day. Eight days of feeling good, I mean actually feeling good about myself and my life, it is so powerful I can feel myself lifting the spirits of those around me, family, friends, students, and I think that makes it even more infectious, this renewed spirit I have. Not drinking has brought me closer to my goals, health wise, financial goals are getting better, personal goals for exercise and my passion for martial arts, how I respond to my daughter and challenges in my life. I am telling you guys it freaks me out!
Alright, I am done ranting about how good I feel, but I just hope someone reads it whose on the edge of quitting and gives it a shot. It's like all the personal development stuff I have studied thus far in my life, all the positivity, gratitude, skills for sales and business, health information, relationship knowledge and communication skills, etc. , anything I thought would make a difference in my life was stunted by alcohol. Call it giving in to instant gratification, like my goal achieving side was in a constant battle with my AL brain, who knows. All I can tell you is its like all this energy was sitting in a fire hose and AL was a kink in the line. My only fear at this point is coming down from this new energy I have had, but its been 8 days and I still feel good. Maybe I have to be vigilent and make sure I dont forget this was not the norm, I used to feel lousy ALL the time drinking but never attributed it to be that much of an issue in how I felt. As always I welcome everyone's input in their experience at this stage, but most of what I have read on here says you just keep feeling better. If I felt any better I would be dancing on the ceiling =P
People on here kept telling me that I would feel better, my mood would fluctuate and to take it a day at a time, and I am so glad I believed them. I would have days of feeling better followed by day of feeling like doing nothing. I peronally did not attribute this to AL but posting on here at least had me curious it was the cause. Since my birthdfay 8 days ago I have not had one gloomy day. Eight days of feeling good, I mean actually feeling good about myself and my life, it is so powerful I can feel myself lifting the spirits of those around me, family, friends, students, and I think that makes it even more infectious, this renewed spirit I have. Not drinking has brought me closer to my goals, health wise, financial goals are getting better, personal goals for exercise and my passion for martial arts, how I respond to my daughter and challenges in my life. I am telling you guys it freaks me out!
Alright, I am done ranting about how good I feel, but I just hope someone reads it whose on the edge of quitting and gives it a shot. It's like all the personal development stuff I have studied thus far in my life, all the positivity, gratitude, skills for sales and business, health information, relationship knowledge and communication skills, etc. , anything I thought would make a difference in my life was stunted by alcohol. Call it giving in to instant gratification, like my goal achieving side was in a constant battle with my AL brain, who knows. All I can tell you is its like all this energy was sitting in a fire hose and AL was a kink in the line. My only fear at this point is coming down from this new energy I have had, but its been 8 days and I still feel good. Maybe I have to be vigilent and make sure I dont forget this was not the norm, I used to feel lousy ALL the time drinking but never attributed it to be that much of an issue in how I felt. As always I welcome everyone's input in their experience at this stage, but most of what I have read on here says you just keep feeling better. If I felt any better I would be dancing on the ceiling =P
It's time to get your weekend sober plans together. Plan ahead & you will succeed!
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