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[fennel]

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Good morning, nestlings!
Congratulations on becoming a grandmother, Nora- I'll be expecting photos of the grand-kittens soon! :H

Coco, I've got your other flipper...one thing I've discovered about myself is that I need something to do during the time I was usually drinking. I've been reading tons...half of my reading material is about addiction, the other half is biographies and what not. There are a lot of good books out there about drinking.

Also, I constantly remind myself of the damage that drinking does to my body. There is no way a person comes through a daily drinking habit without horrible health consequences. I do a fast-forward of veins popping out on my face and other body parts, edematous limbs, failing kidneys, end stage liver disease, heart disease, etc. Not how I want to spend my golden years. It's not pretty!

Finally, I can't deny that I feel better these days. I'm not wracked with guilt or feeling sick in the morning. I don't have that tremor in my hand any more. I don't feel that I'm hiding some big, bad secret any longer.

Hang in there, Coco...

[fennel]

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Thanks for the encouragement, Tranq...I just took my first dose of Topa yesterday. Mrs. Fennel is gone all week on business, and I figured now is as good a time as any to start. I'll order the supplements and CDs today.

[fennel]

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Morning to Lav, papmom, panno, mama, tatangra, dancing, chook...chook, what is a medieval festival like? Do you have to speak "medieval"?

I hope you have a good mental health day, mamabear...we all need one once in a while!

[mama bear]

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I ended up coming into work....not real good at wallowing in bed feelling sorry for myself...feeling depressed and kind of weepy, so i have called doctor to see if i need to up my dose of anti depressant...also I take topa which has a side effect of depression....may need to quit taking that....am waiting for a call back,.....can't stand to be a crybaby....

[Coco-Nut]

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fennel;836949 wrote: Good morning, nestlings!
Congratulations on becoming a grandmother, Nora- I'll be expecting photos of the grand-kittens soon! :H

Coco, I've got your other flipper...one thing I've discovered about myself is that I need something to do during the time I was usually drinking. I've been reading tons...half of my reading material is about addiction, the other half is biographies and what not. There are a lot of good books out there about drinking.

Also, I constantly remind myself of the damage that drinking does to my body. There is no way a person comes through a daily drinking habit without horrible health consequences. I do a fast-forward of veins popping out on my face and other body parts, edematous limbs, failing kidneys, end stage liver disease, heart disease, etc. Not how I want to spend my golden years. It's not pretty!

Finally, I can't deny that I feel better these days. I'm not wracked with guilt or feeling sick in the morning. I don't have that tremor in my hand any more. I don't feel that I'm hiding some big, bad secret any longer.

Hang in there, Coco...

Thanks - I needed that!

(Anyone else remember this commercial?) Signed, Methuselah

[IAD]

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Hi Newb's ! I'm an old dog.....Ha! just checking in to help......Mama Bear....I'm on antii 's myself. Zoloft is my beast.......I come from a family of depression. My father was Instionalized for it. Some times you have to up the anti...drinking will only make life more unbearable ! IAD

[Coco-Nut]

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mama bear;836964 wrote: I ended up coming into work....not real good at wallowing in bed feelling sorry for myself...feeling depressed and kind of weepy, so i have called doctor to see if i need to up my dose of anti depressant...also I take topa which has a side effect of depression....may need to quit taking that....am waiting for a call back,.....can't stand to be a crybaby....

Cheer up, Mama. THE SHOW MUST GO ON!!

Feel better! We are all with you!

[K9Lover]

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Hi Coco!
Sending you strength and love. Hang in there!
(You too Mama!). We're all here for you!
:h
K9

[IAD]

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As I sit in my reading room....I support you all ! Ha! Keep fighting New'bs...IAD

[mama bear]

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sending you love and strength too coco nut...we still have to go on the road with our comedy routine...

[NoraC]

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I am giving our whole nest a great big hug and some Lav - antitude. (Don't know how to spell it )

Hang in there everyone!!!! One step at a time and we are all holding on with wings, flippers, paws, fingernails and whatever we got. :l:l

[IAD]

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Yes NoraC.....hang on withall your being !! IAD

[NoraC]

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Mama Bear - your PM Box is full!!!!!

[sunshine_gg]

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Congrats on the new arrivals, Nora! They don't much look like kitties right now, do they? :H

Coco.. we all got a firm grip on yer flippers... *scootching over to pull you up*
MamaBear... I hope the Blues will leave you in a hurry! I have no experience with Topa.. so can't say if that contributes.

I had my own lengthy discussion going on in my head this morning. Ridiculous, really. Anyways, I opted for a glass of milk, some strawberries and a bagel, instead. Sheesh.

And now, I really need to get some work done, then later meeting with the backhoe guy (building a horse barn this summer) and tonight off to the stable where Atlas is at the moment. I'm looking at May 2nd-4th to bring both the horses home

Hang in there, ladies and gents... there's strength in numbers and we're all here in this together!

[Meech]

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I'm back and a little battered

Hi All,

It's been awhile since I posted. I know some of you are aware I lost my twin a few weeks back and things well, they have been heartbreaking and I know I haven't even got to the real pain and realization of everything.

I usually drink to celebrate and not when I am low. But I think I have found another way to bring AL into my life. Too numb. Haven't used that as a crutch before.

So I MUST get changed around. I will go through some ugly times and will always feel a piece of my soul is gone but i CAN'T continue with AL.

I kept saying I will get the book and other stuff blah blah blah. So after this post I will order My Way Out Book to get started. I take Lglutemine and B supplements.

Any other books that helped any of you?
I am not going to AA (my town is WAAAAY to small for that - just can't go there).

I need to break free of this AL hold. Isn't it funny how much the AL Beast wants to be with me in this difficult time? What a horrible beast.

Any resources that have been helpful please let me know. I feel like I could go either way here and in my heart I want to take the sober road. I'm back at scared and feeling I'm loosing this battle.

Meech:upset: