Newbies Nest

[Hypernova]

Also glad to be AF now. As I mentioned on an earlier post 'it's so relaxing to relax'. Orimus I find myself doing the same thing at the end of the day, I just give up before getting into bed & I tell myself tomorrow is another day. It's kind of like a mental cue giving me permission to let go of everything and not thinking of the 1001 other things I have to do. So I go to bed and take care of myself knowing tomorrow will find me feeling good enough to take on any challenge life hands me (hopefully). At the expense of repeating myself I am soo glad to be free for now. All I can promise is that today I will not drink.

[Pavati]

Hi, All:

I'm back. I didn't really read back yet - not sure I'll have time until this weekend.

I had one pretty awful, stressful day. I have to admit, when I got back to my hotel room full of anxiety I said to myself, "a drink would really make me feel better very quickly." Thankfully, that was a quick thought. I did some deep breathing and relaxation techniques, had a delicious meal and went to bed. Much better, no regret. And besides, when have I ever wanted just one drink???

Hope all was well here. I'll try to catch up later.

Pav

[Lost Soul]

Hi all,
Hope everyone is well this evening :happy2:
Wags, glad your feeling better & didn't have to miss too much work x
ADP - congratulations on 25 days that is great! And good luck for the rest!
Ava, sound like you have a very busy schedule this week, indeed as you say - more manageable AF x
Orimus, glad your sleep hygiene is improving, what do you write?
Nice to see you here Hypernova & even better AF, well done!
Nice to see you back Pav & glad you got through your busy week away, I hope this week is a bit more relaxing x
Busy & more tired with the kids being off this week but otherwise feeling okay, glad to be moving towards 7 weeks AF Friday :happy2: A few ups & downs but isn't that life? Had a nice birthday lunch yesterday & ate too much cake...oops! I will have missed a fortnight of AA but will get back next week when the kids go back to school but have been grand anyway!
Oh yeah, :heartbeat: HAPPY VALENTINES DAY :heartbeat:
Wishing all a safe & sober Tuesday
LS

[Nursie]

Seems to be a big theme today! "Having one drink" wanting one drink, wishing we could have one drink etc.
If we could have one drink our lives wouldn't have ever brought us to a forum like this.
We didn't just decide to come to MWO because it was a fun thing.
We came here DESPERATE, DESOLATE, and DESTROYED.
We were so destroyed that we had to freaking google how to quit drinking so that we could feel better about ourselves. We needed to see/hear/watch other people's stories to compare ourselves. To say "im not as bad as that, but I am as bad as her" "I didn't lose my house, but I hate myself every day". "I have to get this situation under control, there must be some way to control my drinking".
And we end up here.
Let's face it Nesters, "control" and "drinking" will never belong in the same sentence with us. We came here because our lives were out of control. We drink to actually lose control. I have never wanted to drink only one. I may have wished it, but the truth is that before the first sip I knew I was not stopping.

So for me, one is not an option and by recognizing that I am finally in control.

[Nursie]

Cross post Lost! Happy Birthday to you!!

[Lavande]

Good evening Nesters,

I hope everyone had a nice Valentine's day, I did. I went & took my daughter out to lunch, just the two of us, nice

LS, Happy Birthday to you as well. Sure seems to be a big birthday month around here. Come to think of it my granddaughter has one coming soon.

Pav, glad to hear you worked thru your stress like a real pro - good for you.

Ava, I guess I could say something like 'I told you so' about the L-Glutamine, but I won't, LOL. Glad to hear it is working for you!

Everyone sounds pretty good so I'll just wish us all a safe night in the nest!

Lav

[Byrdlady]

Great post, Nursie! There is nothing normal about the way we drank.
ADP, Great job on your uncharted waters! Thats where I want to stay!

In a couple weeks we are going on vacation, with Mick and his wife! Yes, Mick from MWO! We met up with then in Ireland and had such a great time, we decided on another round....(drinking joke). I cant wait! Its nuts what a difference in my life MWO has made.
Happy Valentines Day, all! Stay the course! Byrdie

[ADP]

[QUOTE=KENSHO;1704713]Way to go ADP! Does't it feel good to be in uncharted territory? What will you do differently this time to keep your numbers going?

Kensho, It feels great and looking forward to making it a month! The only difference this time is that drinking put me in hospital and I have been put on a strict diet. More tests next month but the results are looking OK. Unbelievably I didn't drown my liver??!! So have been given a second chance......I intend to take it!!!!!!!!!!!!! The diet has removed all the things I really like, (including AL), such as chocolate, caffine, red meat etc etc. and replaced them with fruit, vegitables, chicken and fish. (Got to admit, I'm enjoying the new diet). I have been eating twice the amount of food and have lost wieght......go figure?! But my energy levels are off the scale and has been noticed by the much better half....lol!

All things seem possible today without AL!

Axx

[mario]

Good morning nesters :-)
On my phone here & it's kinda hard typing, Typing from my phone has shown me that I need better glasses.

Great reading all above posts & it shows that no matter what the downs there us always an up and a way out of our addiction hell, If our addictions were just line asthma or hay fever it would be so easy for us, but our addiction is not just a physical allergy it's also a mental allergy or obsession ,even after we can tolerate the physical alcohol reactions for quite a while,even after each binge it takes us a little longer to get over our hangovers and all that come with us, we still carry on,

It took me years to accept that I cannot drink anymore, it took me years to accept that I had a problem.

I am just for ever gratefull that there were folks here and elsewhere there to help me. Thanks.

Hope you have a good day.

[Readynow79]

Back again after a couple of days without the internet. Technology is not my friend. But Day 16 AF and feeling good. My family are proud of me - I haven't told any friends yet that I have quit as socialising hasn't been on the cards this last couple of weeks anyway.
School holidays here so I had a couple of days at home with my daughter, which, shamefully, would usually be a trigger. But we've had a lovely time, lots of laughs and I know she is so happy that I am present and slightly mad because that is my true self and not because I am drunk. We bicker a lot as she thinks she is my equal and that I can't tell her what to do and this gets me so angry and frustrated, but I haven't given in and reached for the wine. But I have shouted quite a bit!
I had a drinking dream at the weekend in which I could even taste how much I didn't even like that first glass of wine anymore, I was just forcing it down. Out of habit, hair of the dog, I don't even really know but that was where the madness took me, and after the first glass, I was off for the rest of the day - 2-3 bottles, maybe chuck in a few vodkas.... Thankfully it was just a dream this time and my mum's coffee cup remained dry (why I was drinking out of that in the dream, I do not know!).

[little beagle]

Ready I still have those dreams afyer almost 4 years. I take it as a reminder of why I don't drink and I'm doubly grateful when I wake up and, whew, it's JUST a dream.

[wagmor]

Hi all,

Not doing so good in wag-land. Yesterday morning I got in a very bad car accident and frankly am lucky to be here today. I got rear-ended by a truck. The impact was so hard that I got shoved into the car in front of me. The rest of us were sopped at a red light. Dude in the truck must not have been paying attention at all cuz he literally just drove right into me at full speed. Once he got his truck disconnected from mine, he hung a u-turn and took off! It all happened so fast, and it was still somewhat dark in the early morning - I couldn't get a license plate number - just a general description of the truck. Police tried to find him - the truck was leaking fluid and provided somewhat of a trail - but no luck so far.

My car was totaled. I spent half of the day in the ER. I have no serious injuries but my neck and back are extremely sore and it seems that I tore a ligament or two in one of my fingers.

My pup was in the car with me. Thankfully, she wasn't hurt at all. She was very shaken up of course, but no injuries, and she seems to be doing well emotionally. She's a pretty resilient little girl, that's for sure.

I am just beginning to reflect on this experience. There are so many lessons in here, especially related to appreciating each and every sober day cuz life can change in a flash.

Only once did the thought briefly pass thru my mind that, "of all days, surely I deserve a drink today." It was fleeting - never a serious consideration. I felt like I had my armor wrapped around me protecting me from making any stupid decisions.

I did NOT sleep well at all, but am awake this morning with no hangover and no regrets. Glad to be alive and AF, glad to have my pup with me safe and sound, very grateful for the friend/neighbor and my partner who came immediately when I called from the accident scene, and who are taking very good care of me as I begin what will probably be a long journey of healing.

Sorry for the long post. I'm a bit overwhelmed with emotion this morning. So glad to be part of this safe nest, and so appreciative of you all for being here and providing such solid AF support.

I will take some time to read back and catch up with you all. Between yesterday and being sick for several days, I feel very far out of the loop in terms of everyone else's news.

Hug your loved ones, and yourselves.

[NoSugar]

Wags, I'm so glad you are not more seriously hurt. Take care of yourself. xx, NS

[Roobs]

Hello nesters,

Wags, I'm so very grateful that you and your pup are ok. So sorry that this happened to you. You're right, we need to remember life can change very quickly. Thank goodness you're sober, thank goodness you're ok. I hope they catch the driver, that's horrible that he/she just took off. Take care of yourself. Let those around you take care of you. Many hugs to you and your pup.

Roobs

[actiongirl46]

Wags!! I'm so happy you are ok. That sounds so horrible. I wonder if you are still in shock. I hope you can rest and slowly recover, be good to yourself, not only physically but mentally.

Thanks for the reminder to hug our loved ones. You are so right and we get so busy.

Again, I'm glad you are here, not hungover, and starting to heal. :hug: