Hi Everyone. Quick check in. I had to work today - met clients in the mountains. Drove a total of 4.5 hours and feeling tired. I'm not used to working on the weekend - Saturdays are usually my chill day. I brought a bottle of wine for the photo shoot and then gave it to the photographer. She was trying to decline out of politeness, but when I said, "no really... I don't drink..." she took it, but also was amazed. She said, "good for you" and "I bet your mornings are great!". I said, "I don't get tired of a clear head in the mornings!" Smelling it was weird though. I usually avoid everything about it. It was a kind of traumatic sensory experience pouring it into the glasses. I brought a nice bottle of seltzer too - but the photographer felt it wasn't right. I'd love to start a new trend of not needing wine in fancy photos to sell it. It's like sex. Playing with the senses to get an emotional response from it. Kind of dirty.
G - I need to get back on track with my food. Congrats on your discipline with plant-based. I bet you'll feel great! I need to baby step my way back to avoiding the foods that make me feel badly. Unfortunately that's a long list. But feeling good is worth it!
Slo, it was my in-laws who pressured me. They think you're goodie-goodie if you don't participate fully in food or drink. But they also don't know the extent of the issue I had with alcohol. I remember being desperate to stop. I couldn't. I didn't know how, but I wanted to get rid of this thing that was controlling me. (Not that she wouldn't feel all that too, but she doesn't admit she has a problem). Anyway, back to 9 months now, and they can't take that away from me.
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