Hi SpinningJ and welcome. Sounds like you are in the right place. Well done on 5 weeks AF. At least you know what to expect and now you have us for support you will soon be well on your way past 5 weeks again. I know what you mean about being a different person when drinking. You heard Pink sing? "Looking for myself sober'? That's a big part of this recovery business. I am so glad I dont have to deal with black outs anymore.
Talking of black outs, I had a dream last night where I got drunk and blacked out. when I woke up from the black out, I had rung an old friend of mine and couldnt remember what I had said to her. I was so frustrated in the dream not knowing what I had said (as I havent spoken to her for so long and wanted to catch up on her news). Then I saw another friend I hadnt seen for years and he told me while I was in the black out I had stripped off and swam naked (which was always a possiblity in my previous life! OOpps). I felt so ashamed and embarrassed in this dream that when I woke up I could still feel it. A good reminder for me what it is like when I drink without having to actually go thru it and experience that horrible black out again. The sub-conscious mind is an amazing thing!
Anyway I am getting thru my witching-day. Fridays - yuk i hate them....and so far so good.
Hope everyone makes it thru the weekend and gets to Monday with all goals intact.
Bye for now.
HC
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