Hi all , what an amazing thread ! It seems to cover all I feel .. & do . I thought I was the only one who woke at that awful early morning hour feeling so guilty & angry with myself , feeling panicky & scared & shamed . I have been trying to get myself sorted for so many years (nearly 2 decades now) , but like you all say , its always that first drink -- I just never manage to do that one only . Anyway I started on Monday & have done amazingly well ( for me) It didnt even feel too hard . I reached day 5 & really all seemed great till I had a major confrontation with my feisty 10 yr old over homework , rudeness etc & somehow all went pearshaped . There was my excuse I needed to give in ! I am writing this now before I get beyond the point of sense . I really dont want to keep doing this . Like so many of you a film comes on the tv & I say ; Oh great lets watch this & my hubby says we ve already seen it ( must have been pissed during it & have NO recollection ! ) I really want to be able to moderate & enjoy those fabulous shiraz & merlots but am seriously beginning to think that I just cant ever stay at 1 glass . its a hard & sacry thought .
I think you are all so amazing & such an inspiration ...Thankyou
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