Suns...where are you from, Hun? Using "ya'll" is serious bidness if you're not from around here! I loved reading your post. I don't know what's up with all the cleaning, but I'm with you...it sure needed doing. The more I do the better it feels, too! This can not be a bad thing. I'm just glad nobody else saw the squaller!!
Rita, I am so happy for your success...may I say that you are over the worst! You get yourself to day 13 and things just get easier and easier...before you know it, you will have miscounted your days only to find there are more than you thought!
I can certainly see that if there's a doubt in your mind that you can drink again and be ok, that this would be a long journey to no where. I guess you get to a point of trying and failing where you just come to finally realize you can't moderate...like Suns said, if after 30days you still have doubts then that's probably the addition talking. But there is no question in my mind (thru many, many tries, God knows I gave it the old college try) that this is something that I cannot control. This should not be news to me, because I'm also like that with a candy bar, or other treat...I consume it until it is gone. I can't take a couple bites of a Snicker's bar, and leave the rest for later. How DO people do this?? Unlike vanilla ice cream. As many times as I've been sick on AL you'd think I'd never touch it again. (head shaking) The Hope you can drink again, in this world of addiction, is NOT a good thing. It will pull you back into it. I DO have hope, and lots of it, regarding my new world! And I feel like a fresh faced teen again! I was thinking yesterday, that the only way I'd take a drink again were if I were drunk...That's like looking into a mirror looking into a mirror looking into a mirror. OY.
Here's to a day filled with ice cream!!! Byrdie
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