Aannnnnndddd.... Welcome back anxiety. I have to say that I'm getting really tired of doing this with you. I am planning for my long term future without you (in the alcohol withdrawl form at least), and you are doing a great job at playing up your exit by highlighting my fears. I so wish I could just stop drinking and keep things the way they are... going through every day - no real disturbance. But I am realizing that there are major changes involved with a lasting quit and I am terrified of what it will mean for my work, my relationships and my short term sanity. I am terrified of this change. I spent most of the day exercising and reading toolbox and generating my long term plan - so work did not get done either - add more anxiety. Need to focus on this sometime I suppose. Not really looking forward to the next 13 days.
Sorry for your angst with hubby Cherokeer. I can relate. Won't it be great when the numbness no longer feels like the best option - i.e. when we grow past the desire for it. Looking forward to that day.
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