13 days AF and I drank last night

[Wannabsober]

This was my first attempt at being AF in my life. I had 13 days under me.
I wanted to go line dancing last night at this country bar. I knew it would be tempting and I gave myself permission to drink 1 glass of wine if I wanted. I sort of wanted to test myself to see. It was actually really hard to order that glass of wine. I couldn't spit the words out of my mouth. The bartender actually walked away while I thought about what I wanted to order. I know you all must think what a dumb ass I am forcing myself to drink huh? Dumb is right! But I am not going to be hard on myself. I am going to think positive.

I did learn a lesson. I learned that the little quirk in my brain is still there that nags me to drink more once I've had one, but the Topamax I am taking has taken all pleasure out of the buzz. I ended up having 5 small glasses of wine over the course of 4 hours. I had a great time and yes I do regret spoiling my 13 day run being AF. But I am looking at it like I got a flat tire. I'm going to fix it and move along on my journey. I'm not going to get out and slash the other 3 tires.

[Seacailin]

13 days AF and I drank last night

Great Attitude!! This is a journey, not a destination (unless, of course, we give up) then we know the destination. Never stop fighting and revel in your AF days. Progress, not perfection.

[Wannabsober]

13 days AF and I drank last night

Great words of advice. Thank you. I will remember that.

[skinny cow]

13 days AF and I drank last night

It's good you feel the topamax spoiled the pleasure of the buzz, and also that you didn't go tototally overboard either. Just consider it a minor blip, count your blessings that it wasn't worse, but don't tempt fate agian and just focus on the success you have had.

[kitkatsue]

13 days AF and I drank last night

Dido great attitude !!

I like to think of it as a learning process. You didn't lose your 13 days AF. You tested the water.

Good job on your 13 days AF!!

kit

[Aussie Chick]

13 days AF and I drank last night

Hi, I did the same last night. I've had something like 13 days AF since 6th Jan and 3 days non AF (but only drinking 1 to 3 units on those evenings). Overall aim being to moderate. I went to a BBQ, I had planned it to be a non AF night which is fine. Had 4 glasses of wine there but what let me down is then when we came home I had another small glass of red and a small Grand Marnier!

When I woke up this morning, I knew I'd been drinking the night before and amazing how I resent feeling a bit groggy these days. I just don't want to feel like that anymore and waste mornings or days feeling a bit crap.

I feel a few more days AF coming up now.

AC x x x

[gyco]

13 days AF and I drank last night

congrats who ,been there done it,your theory is good, as long as you keep a grip,you don't have to make excuses ,as long as you feel OK,and it seems you do, gyco excellent thread