I have been planning to leave my hubby of 26 years because of his severe alcoholism which has caused enormous problems in our life and that of our four adolescent and young twenties kids. However I also drink more than I should by quite a lot - it has become a mutual habit - but I get up in the mornings, go to work, pick up all the pieces at home and am generally considered by all around me to be the rock that keeps the family together. The main problem I have with alcohol is not remembering what I watched or what I said or sometimes who I spoke to the night before - which is quite bad enough. Sooo - my tendency is to concentrate on his problem and to assume that I can control mine if he stops.
My epiphany is to realise that if I deal with my own excess I may be able to carry him along with me with the help of this site. We moved to France a few years ago - wine is cheap and good. AA is not really available in the same format here (I know lots of people in the States and the UK who have been helped by that program) and in any case my hubby would not be able to participate in French, apart from the fact that he is absolutely not the type to "share".
Tomorrow I shall make an appointment to see our doctor. I don't know if topiramate is available in France or if he will go along with this program, but if he does I will be really excited. If I can control my own consumption (preferred option as, like Roberta, I like a good wine in moderation) or stop completely, I shall be relieved. If hubby follows suit then life may really take on another dimension.
I have enjoyed reading your posts, and am looking forward to following this program.
"Courage" to all as they say in French!
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