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[upnorthgirl]

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Hey Cat and everyone

Thanks for asking Cat--fell off on Tuesday night but back up again. Feel terrible about it. I had been considering getting the Antabuse prescription but holding off starting it until after our vacation (all inclusive resort with lots of free booze) but I think I had better start it the same day I get it.

[dill]

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Say, Cat, how many days are you on? You are my hero! I wish I had your stick-to-it-ness. I'd be so much better. But, that aside, I am still moving forward and making progress. It's just been SO MANY YEARS that I have been engaging in this habit. It's not just the physical addiction, as you know, it's such a deeply entrenched habit! I am 56 years old. I wonder if the length of time I've been doing this is making it harder for me to change habit patterns. I've been drinking wine pretty much daily since I was about 30. Of course, it wasn't abusive for many years. It gradually escalated to that in my 40s and just seemed to get way out of control in recent years. So, that's a lot of years of a bad habit to undo. How long have you been drinking? How about any one else. Care to share?

AF today! Go (still to be named) Team!

[cuckoosnest83]

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Glad you liked the song. Some of the lyrics really hit home for me.

1MC, good luck tonight if you do attend the function. It is difficult not to drink when others around you are but it can be done. I wish you the strength to make it through tonight.

UNG, it's hard when we feel we have failed but living without alcohol/or moderating is something new we are learning and it does take time. There are bound to be stops and starts.

Catbelle, congratulations on your success. You should be proud of what you have accomplished. I wish you continued success.

Dill, my story is much like yours. Started drinking regularly in my mid 30's, started to become a habit in my 40's, and became a problem by my late 40's. Now 54 and realize I need to stop. So plan on another AF night tonight.

Hope everyone has a great evening. Wishing you are strength.

[JAMMS]

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Hi Everyone.....I wanted to pop in and say hello...my boss keeps coming in my office..while I'm trying to catch up on reading the threads.... YIKES!!!

you all sound pretty damn good...that's great!!! I'm doing good....as far as AL goes...have been doing the MOD thing and been doing it well...

this past weekend was hard..one of my sons friends OD'd and died...I know the family so it was ..still is...hard to deal with...he was 16 years old!

Hubby not working so he's always home!!!!!! ARGGHH!!! Finances are starting to diminish...been cutting corners like crazy....

I'm gaining weight and it's freakin' me out.....

nothing really going my way here...

[dill]

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JAMMS, you sound great, in spite of your troubles! I'm glad to hear you're doing well with you MOD goals! Sorry to hear about the stesses though. My husband is always home, too, as he also is out of work. I feel like I never have any time to myself. I am one who enjoys alone time to a certain extent.
Sorry 'bout the weight gain. Is it stress-eating?

Cuckoo, Thanks for sharing. It sounds like our story is very similar indeed!

[cuckoosnest83]

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Jamms, so sorry to hear about your friend's son. What a tragic loss at such a young age. You do sound very upbeat for all that you are going through and that you still have a handle on your drinking is amazing. Great job.

Dill, it is so sad how many people are suffering in this poor economy. I consider myself very fortunate to still be employed. So many people complain about their jobs instead of being grateful to have one.

Have a good evening everyone. Another night AF for me.

[Cat Belle]

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Hey Jamms! Thought you went off the grid - glad you're doin well! Sorry about the loss-

Dill - I have been drinking for a VERY long time too. Started when I was a teenager, here and there. But then came the twenties...I have (whoops, had) been drinking EVERYDAY since my early twenties. The only time I didn't drink, is if I was dead down sick. It wasn't always wine, that was an effort to "cut down" and we all know how that story goes. It used to be whiskey and water, and alot of it. I will be 38 this year - and it is time for me to live the integrity that I live in every other part of my life. Except for my husband, nobody knows. or at least I have not openly discussed that I am an alcoholic. I am a highly functional alcoholic, which I believe is the case for MANY, MANY people.

You're right, it is ALOT of years of HARD drinking to undo. And now, it makes me sick to think of all the years I wasted on AL.

Today is 36, Dill...and I pray to God for the strength to keep going and going -

And Hello to everybody else! Tomorrow is Friday!! NO PAPERS to write this weekend!! whoop, whoop!


Night ya'll,

Cat

[Peanut]

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Good Evening All
Once again, having a hard time getting to posting. My work is killing me. Two more weeks of gruelling, tiring work, then meetings the next week (meetings in Banff this year) and then I can chill a bit. Didn't get home until almost 7 tonight, and my feet and legs were killing me. I think my race "training" will have to wait until after this last push - then, watch out!!!! Poor dog of mine, just wants to get out for a run, and I just can't do it. Maybe this weekend.....

Cat - you kill me with your Brrrr!!!!! But it seems that maybe it was colder where you are than where I am. It warmed up almost to the freezing mark this past week - it was wonderful. Of course on Sunday, we had a run, and although it was only -15C, there was a wickedly cold wind - we took alot of short cuts! I think this nice weather will hold for the rest of the week, which makes things much more bearable.

Dill - it is so hard to break the habit. I know for me, it is almost all habit! I think I started really daily drinking after separating from my ex. I have always sat down at the end of my day and smoked 2 cigarettes (none during the day) with a glass of diet coke. Then it turned occasionally to wine - although I have always drank on weekends, since teenage years, except during my 3 pregnancies. I'm not sure when the daily bottle of wine started after the separation, but that was 7 years ago, so it has likely been going on for a while. Habits are very hard to break for me.

Jamms - nice to hear from you!!! Too bad about hubby and the finances. I will send positive vibes your way - visualize good things. My mother always said, whatever you want, put it out to the universe and the universe will give it. Not sure how that works in the employment world, but maybe?!?! HA!!

Upnorth - I seem to fall off quite regularly. Good luck with the Antabuse. I am not doing that great this month - where did all my resolve go??? Only 2AF days in february so far!! Phooey!

1more - how did you do at your la-de-da function??? Did you have any fun at least??
Hi Cuckoo - I'll have to go find that song you posted!!
New Day - what up? How things shakin'?

I will go sit down and read. My son vacuumed the house for me tonight as I seemed to be stuck on my back on my bed and couldn't get up. Feel better now, but tired. So happy it's friday tomorrow!!! YES!!!

Sleep well everybody!
xoxo peanut

[cuckoosnest83]

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Good morning all, headed out to work so can't post like I would like but just wanted to wish everyone a good Friday. Wiill post later tonight. Have a great day.

[dill]

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Good morning all. Thank you for sharing your hisories. I wanted to mention that I drank in my 20's, too, but that was just weekend stuff, not dailIy. I didn't drink as a teen. And I did not drink when pregnant or nursing.

We mostly sound somewhat like the lucky ones who haven't had any dire consequence to drinking, just the slow loss of control, dignity, self respect and for some, relationships. As far as people knowing, in my world, my husband knows and wants me to quit, one girlfriend and the other girlfriend knows, but not the extent. I have tried to warn my children about the genetics and that alcoholism runs in our family, and have told each of them at one time or another that I am 'cutting back' because of the risk. I am waiting for the day when I am completely sober and I trust myself to stay that way, to tell them that I don't drink anymore, and why.

Anyhow, I'm AF today and will stay that way, but woke up feeling a bit ill. Must have picked up a bug. Uck. Trying to decide if I can go to work or not. Have something that needs to be done this morning. Maybe I'll do that and head home.

I'm sorry not to mention each by name, but I am glad to have each and everyone of you here helping me on my journey and I hope I do the same for each of you.

Watch out for the witching hour!

[cuckoosnest83]

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Well, all I made it home from volunteering at the animal shelter without stopping at the liquor store so on day 3 for me. Today I had a slight epiphany as I was leaving work. I had a great day up until I was ready to leave and then something quite nasty happened. So by time I left work I was thinking having a drink would blot out the ugly incident and instead I had this wonderful insight that there will always be unfortunate events in our lives it is just how we respond to them that makes the difference. Today I didn't respond to this one in a bad way. If I can only keep that line of thought but it is difficult to do. Well hope everyone had a good day. Take care. The weekend looms large.

[A Work in Progress]

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Wow, CuckoosNest! That is a fantastic epiphany, not to just think it, but really deeply "get it." Good for you. Hang onto that one!

[1morechance]

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Hello everyone
Long day yesterday so I wasn't able to log in.

Jamms it's great to here from you. Sorry about your friend's son. I did well at the dinner party. I had 1/2 glass of wine with dinner; everyone had wine at the table so it was hard to say no but just nursed it until we got up from the table. There was a latin band so it was a great party and I stuck with cranberry juice and danced the night away! it was fun and i didn't miss the AL at all.

Hope everyone has a great weekend. Off to therapy and then grocery shopping which I hate but gotta do

[cuckoosnest83]

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Hi troop, hope everyone is hanging in there this weekend. 1MC, great job at the dinner party. What a success.

WIP, thank you for your encouragement. Keeping this thought is the hard part. Today for some reason was a tough one but made it through. Tried to keep thinking of the words, "this to shall pass".

Anyway, I sincerely trust everyone is doing well. Please take care and check in when you can.

[dill]

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Cuckoo, Glad you made it through. Today has been a bit more of astruggle for me, too. I like your phrase "this too shall pass". I'll use that, too!

1mc, It sounds like you did an absolutely brilliant job of getting through your dinner party! Don't know if I could have. But, none of us ever knows what we can do, until we do it! Proud of you.