I gulp wine like it's going out of fashion. I get upset when I think someone is drinking more from the bottle than me. I get irritated when everyone else drinks too slowly because it might delay opening the next bottle.
Now I have started to come home from the bar after drinking 3 or four glasses of wine, and then drink another bottle on top of that, on my own.... so the old 'I do it to be social' excuse just wore out.
Last year I decided to stop drinking for a month... I'm still working out how to implement that. I managed one AF day last month though.
Three years ago I watched my father die slowly and painfully of Cirrhosis. It only made things worse. I drink about the same as him. He weighed 100 pounds more. If I don't get a handle on this, I suspect I will go the same way much sooner. My paternal grandmother also had a drink problem.
I went to a therapist recently and have found out that I have suffered from PTSD for some years, its much better now, but the heavy binge drinking continues to be a habit.
So I sit in my apartment most nights and surf the net, down a bottle of wine and smoke a packet. I have actually started to prefer to do this than to go out. I want to sort this nasty little problem out before it turns into full blown alcoholism.
Err yeah so that's me. I am not so keen on taking the meds - I had an allergic reaction to Zyban once which was pretty severe. But I am really curious about the supplements. I just ordered the book.
Also my friend is an acupuncturist... so I'm going to give that a go too.
Thanks for reading
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