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[skinny cow]

well, i've had a tough old run sadly. I've been reading the posts, but haven't been posting myself because i've just been feeling too s**t if you know what i mean. my dh has basically had it and threatened to take away all my access to cash which would make me feel just totally pathetic and isolated and crazy. but i am going to start back posting because i really have no other outlets to tell the truth.

i live in a pretty isolated place and i find mwo posts really a great place to make contact with others who have similar problems. anybody out there to touch base?

[Bella]

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Im here to touch base Skinny cow Bella XXXX

[ezzmae]

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welcome back. Like you I have been lurking a little but not posting. Sorry to hear that you are feeling crap. Stay in touch with us all, keep posting and hopefully things will start to look better soon.

[BecomingMeAtLast]

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I'm here, Skinny. Yes, you're never alone with your MWO friends. Feel free to PM me any time if you'd like to. I'm online quite a bit. It's great you posted this and are reaching out. If you want to chat I can chat, too.

Take care :l
Be

[polaryzed]

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Sunny Days R Us

Hi Skinny Cow,

Great to see you Back !
Hope you feel better soon, not sure what dh means, I'm guessing your husband. What's up with some of these guys. If I heard you correctly, you said he still drinks. So I am confused abt. what he wants from you.

All I know is you were there for me when I just started visiting MWO 2 weeks ago. And you are one of the people in MWO who made me decide to keep coming back. I find it extremely helpful Reading posts and Threading. Have you tried journallizing. Writing helps. But I agree with the others who says substitute another action where AL fall short.

God Bless and keep up the good fight . . . You CAN DO THIS
Place HuGGable here :l :l :l :h

[Seacailin]

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I'm glad that you are here SC. You are not alone in your struggle. I have been struggling big time. I am here for you.:l

[skinny cow]

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that was really nice of you polaryzed! i was really positive when i started reading and posting. and even though i kept slipping, i still kept posting. but then, i got really depressed and things went very bad with my husband.
basically, he has been very supportive, but he is SICK of me lying about my drinking. i go to aa, and the next night i drink and lie to him about it, and then he catches me at it and it INFURIATES him. and ist the lying that drives him crazy.

and its the lying that totally demoralizes me too. And then he basically said, well, the only way to stop you drinking is to take away all your bank and credit cards. well, that would totally suck considering i have three young kids. it made me feel totally sad and pathetic! but i know it was just because he is frustrated.

i am sick of it all. and the worst part? there is that horrible part of me that just doesn't want to let the drink go! how insane is that guys and girls? i ask you!

[sunshine_gg]

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:l Skinnny.

Yeah, it is sad and insane to not want to let go. But you're SO not alone with that.

I agree with Wally... your hubby is grasping at straws to help you and help your young family. And Polarized... I tend to think that our partners shouldn't have to forsake alcohol because WE can't handle it ourselves. But that's just my opinion. Now, booze in the house (or accessible to US) is a different story.

Welcome back Skinny... do pick yourself up and go at it again.... with a vengeance! It took a few runs at it for me, too - and I'm not sure I'm DONE yet, either.

:l You can do it, and there's plenty of us rooting for you!

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[garlando]

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Hi, Skinny Cow,

My situation is very much the same as yours.

I myself have been reading and not posting because I've been more on than AF. I'm different where I wish I can just get myself to be honoust with my husband and have him go through these desperate measures to help me. The way I see it is that he realy must love you to stick with you and try to help you. I'm afraid if I tell my husband the whole truth he will leave me. He must know something because I have bought a breathalizer before and asked him to test me when he gets home, but he kind of took it as a joke. I think I need someone to not be in denial and tell me to get a grip because I want to give my boy the best of me and at the moment it isn't possible.

[Evie.Lou]

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We are all in this together...Glad your gonna post..
PM me if I can help.

[stepintime]

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skinny cow;546679 wrote: well, i've had a tough old run sadly. I've been reading the posts, but haven't been posting myself because i've just been feeling too s**t if you know what i mean. my dh has basically had it and threatened to take away all my access to cash which would make me feel just totally pathetic and isolated and crazy. but i am going to start back posting because i really have no other outlets to tell the truth.

i live in a pretty isolated place and i find mwo posts really a great place to make contact with others who have similar problems. anybody out there to touch base?

Hi,

I just wanna add that, if you live in a pretty isolated place, can I please come stay with you for a while???? cuz I got a whole load of shite going on and I would so love some isolation!
My db has just lost his job. No redundancy pay-out cuz not been there long enough. So absolutely NO IDEA how we gonna pay the bills. My salary will just about cover the mortgage, with about a hundred quid left over, for every thing else!
And all this, at a time when I just started antabuse.
I give up.
I just give up.

Just tell me when I can hitch-hike to ireland, and I'll see you when I get there.

xxxx :l xxx