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[hlbcab]

just started here and have realized i need a different direction for a while. hard to say... but... i am drunk now. kids and wife wouldn't know. i keep control.... but i need help and a different direction. i have so many hobbies and things to do with my kids and family, but, well..... kind of obvious. i drink to a certain level, therapeutic buzz as i call it. then i chase it away with coffee and tea. no probs (yet) with home/house and others... thanks.........

[hlbcab]

ok... i need to start something....

glass is now empty... guess i can start now.....

[hlbcab]

ok... i need to start something....

thanks for the reply....

i haven't been AF for 30 days since high school (30yrs).....

good place to start...

i will look about and find my spot....

i need something to help me stop.... i can't do this any more.... not like this anyway...

many thanks........

[tlrgs]

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welcome and yes no better time then now to start .. you can do this .. good luck and we are here for you

[hlbcab]

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thanks.... going to set the coffee for the morning and will check in tomorrow.

any nudge, or verbal threat will be welcome......

i appreciate and need the help.......

tomorrow, tea...

[hlbcab]

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scary part is i know what i am doing to myself... medical background....

funny.... i am happy i told someone... even virtually...

thanks....

breathe in.. breathe out... move on....

[hlbcab]

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whomever is out there and listening.... my heartfelt thanks....

i don't know where i am going but i know where i want to be.....

i will check in tomorrow.... good night all...

[gabby]

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Its how it happens. You think about it for a while and a while longer. Even sometimes agonize and torture yourself with your thoughts.

You know you need to start something.

Then you start lookin privately online for some support, and you find us.

Us who have been there.....right where you are right now. We know how you feel. We can help you....

[Guest]

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hlbcab Hello, I too can never stop drinking, just kept that buzz, worked for me for a long time, did not work for the people in my life. So I have finally stopped (and had a few minor slips) but I do meds and that is the only way I could stop.
Welcome to this site, i just found it in Dec 08 and all these fine folks helped me through this magic electronic air, with SUPPORT.
Best to you, I am staying with it, come with me and US. :heart::heart::heart:

[aprilmoon]

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I found this website when I was at my lowest.......I'm glad I did.

:welcome:

[hlbcab]

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well... not drunk... but did not maintain sobriety.just a couple..... a small comfort.

feel like the bill murray movie 'what about bob' .... baby steps to the door, baby steps down the stairs.....

heh.... guess a little humor for the steps? maybe?

baby steps, get sober......

[aprilmoon]

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Yep I'm doing baby steps, but I can't have a couple of drinks. Man I wanted some today. I mean it's Friday night and it's my normal thing to do...up until a couple of weeks ago.

See my signature(s). Florida boy posted about how the hangover last longer than the buzz. It's so true. I did get to where I could deal with the day after feeling yucky physically, it was the feeling yucky mentally, that I couldn't deal with anymore.

I wish you the best in your journey.

[hlbcab]

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aprilmoon,

bang on.... it's the mental weight that is the hardest. i don't know when but i do know i will get this done.

drinking tea tonight. last night i was bombed and drink in hand while typing.....

ah well.....

[aprilmoon]

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HLB....I'm banging on. LOL Whatever that means. I have no rum in the house....so I have not been tempted to drink. That's how I gotta do it. Sweet tea is my drink of choice. I don't know where you are from, but down here in the South (USA) we gotta have our sweet tea. It's coffee for me right now...It's 6AM.

[Willie09]

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HLB -

Your story sounds alot like mine. Nice wife, kids, good job and no real problems. Been drinking for almost 30 years. Up every morning no matter how I felt and off to work, haven't called off sick in 25 years.

But the mental anguish was getting the better of me. Started the program 12/24/08 and have stayed AF since. It hasn't been easy but it has been worth it.

As the days tick by and the fog has cleared somewhat I've realized that the little drinking problem I tought I might have is indeed a problem. My drinking is far from normal. I am flat sick of living a lie that everything is okay.

I know you can do it when you decide the time is right. We are here for you.

Looking forward to hearing more