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    #1

    Just starting out...again

    I have been away for such a long time, and in the mean time made improvements, but then fell hard. I met a man, who is wonderful, and we got engaged. We have similar issues with AL, and have been feeding off of each other for the past few months. We have tried to ignore the fact we BOTH have a problem.

    I take shots of vodka basically until I pass out. Then I wake up in the morning and feel so terrible that I throw up, so I take a shot, and I feel better.

    Lately, my finace has been hiding the bottle after I pass out so I can't drink when I wake up.

    I found myself SEARCHING for it this morning, I know I need to come back.

    Tonight is going to be hard, I know I'll have the cold sweats and terrible shaking, so wish me luck and please go to the chat room to keep me company.

    I have to stop. I am going to lose myself again. I feel like some is already gone.
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    #2
    Just starting out...again

    :welcome:Take a deep breath. You will be OK. You have come to a place where you can talk and find answers.
    Dill

    Dont forget, you can: start late, start over, be unsure, try and fail AND STILL SUCCEED!

    If it is important to you, you will find a way. If not, you will find an excuse.

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      #3
      Just starting out...again

      Hey Down! You are one of the people I 've thought of lately, remembering. I am glad you are back .. hang out with us...:h:h:h
      :boxer: Get the hell out of my house, Al, you worthless bastard!!

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        #4
        Just starting out...again

        Good to be back, but so hard to start healing again.
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          #5
          Just starting out...again

          down2 -- if you're in CO, you're up very late! How are you doing? Is there anyway you can get some rest?
          ~K.

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            #6
            Just starting out...again

            i am up very late...the sleep just won't come.

            I have so much guilt, worry, and anxiety I can't be ca
            lm.
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              #7
              Just starting out...again

              Maybe try dimming the lights and take a series of long, deep breaths (way down into your belly). Or perhaps a cup of herbal tea? Chamomile can be very calming. Are you keeping hydrated? Need to keep flushing out the bad stuff. I have to jump off for now, but will check back later. :h
              ~K.

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                #8
                Just starting out...again

                I applaud you for coming back here to get inspiration during this time. While I'm new here, I'm not new to staying off the AL and then messing up.

                Jan 28th of this year I started over again. I've been sober months and even years just to mess it up again by drinking.

                Just know you got a friend in me. We can do this together. I too went thru a little of the shakes on day one and two this time. It does get better, I promise.

                Talk to your boyfriend. I hated having "the talk" with my husband, but he now is giving me a lot of support and no judgement.

                I wish you the best in your journey.
                RUM IS POISON AF since 09/28/09

                "The hangover last a lot longer than the buzz!!!" quote from FloridaBoy

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                  #9
                  Just starting out...again

                  Hi D2

                  Perhaps a nice warm bath might help relax you, before or with your camomile tea.

                  And slow deep breathing exercises could definetely help, works for me anyway.

                  I agree you should talk with your partner, cuz you want to start out on the right foot.

                  Hope you feel better soon. :l

                  God Bless

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                    #10
                    Just starting out...again

                    Welcome back D2E
                    The detox is the worst part. Do you have any of the supps. Calms Forte may be helpful. Please keep us posted. We are here to support you.
                    "Decide-Which Voice in Your Head you Can Keep Alive" (Shinedown)

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                      #11
                      Just starting out...again

                      Thank you all. I can't remember if it was this hard last time... it sure feels like this time is worse.
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