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[crazyforwine]

This will be a short post because I can't seem to get this posting to "take." Let's see...

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I see it.

[Angelcakes]

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You got it Crazy!! So now just click 'Post reply' at the bottom of the thread and tell us a little about you...we're here to listen/help if we can.

xo

[startingover]

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How is it going Crazy?

[down2earth]

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Crazy. Welcome. I am a returning member and found this a good place to come and beat the the lonesome feeling. There are people with wonderful stories that will inspire you. They also have very kind hearts and sometimes, we need that so we don't forget we are loved and worthy of being loved.

[crazyforwine]

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I'm having a very hard time, truth be told. I guess I've been avoiding the truth for a very long time! It feels daunting to get started; I drink to ease the sickness from drinking; I drink to sleep and to avoid most of my life! Life just seems so stressful, it's hard to know how to cope without a numbing effect.

I have the book, and some of the supps but can't seem to pull the trigger. I feel like I am circling the drain-am now having 2 bottles of wine a night, some of it in the wee hours to try to get a couple more hours of sleep. I'm just disgusted and sick of myself.

Have been reading posts here for quite awhile, it seems like a great place with lots of good ideas and shared feelings and experiences. I need you all here to get me through the withdrawals, which are just so painful-the paranoia and extreme anxiety and shakiness! I"m sure many of you know exactly how this feels.

I so want to think better of myself, be healthier (I used to run every day), be a better Mom. Mostly I want to get rid of this profound sense of doom.

Thank you for any thoughts! You are a great group.

Crazy

[startingover]

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Crazy, you probably know this, but when you quit the drink, the paranoia and anxiety will leave you. I thought I drank because of it, but its the other way around.
Yes the withdrawals are not nice, but treat it like you have a dose of the flu, lots of water, rest, and comfort in the knowledge that you are finally beginning to look after yourself.
You most certainly can do this. Have you read the book yet? That will give you some ideas to put a plan together. There is also a very good thread you might like to read in Monthly Abstinence, called the Toolbox thread.

[down2earth]

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Crazy, you sound just like me. First thing I am used to doing when I get home is take a shot. Then I take another. That makes me feel better enough to eat. Then I have to really get my drink going. I drink until I pass out, and then I usually wake up at about 3:00 and need a drink to calm me down, and stop the cold sweats. I also usually take a shot before I leave for work to stop the shakiness.

I am going through major withdrawl right now and I am at work. I can't even hold a piece of paper up. I have got anxiety so bad I almost feel like screaming. I know I won't sleep tonight, because I will wake up with cold sweats every 15 minutes are so. So I'll be here, going through every awful thing you are.

We need to do this. We can do this.

[crazyforwine]

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Oh, Down2Earth, I understand completely. I had a big conference call this morning-I work from home-and was deathly afraid I was going to throw up during it!

And I do know the paranoia follows the drinking; it's such a nasty feeling, like doom as I said. I feel like I can't get started until I feel better, and I can't feel better if I don't get started!

crazy

[startingover]

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You both can get through this, it will get so much easier. Keep reading and posting to give you strength and inspiration.

[crazyforwine]

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Thanks, startingover. I can't believe you gave up nicotine, too! How did you manage your nerves? I've never smoked but I understand it's very calming. Bravo!

[startingover]

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I am still in the early days with the nicotine...but I couldnt consider it if I hadnt stopped drinking, I am MUCH calmer without the booze. Giving it up is pretty hard.

[down2earth]

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Oh the doom! it feels like how did I get here? I used to drink A beer, A glass of wine, A cocktail?I?d be fine. That would be it.

The first time I got wasted I drank so much I blacked-out. When I woke up I was in a bed in a friends guestroom. There were no sheets on the bed, because I had thrown up on them. The next morning, I felt terrible, and even the thought of alcohol made me sick. I had that feeling, like I never wanted to drink again.

I didn?t drink for about a week, and went back to drinking moderately. No hang-overs, no feeling out of control.

After a while I started drinking a little more than I used to, and started getting hangovers. This would keep me away from the stuff for a week or so.

Then I moved in with some people that partied a lot. I learned ?hair of the dog,? and that there?s not a hangover in the world that can?t be cured by a double bloody mary. Usually it wouldn?t stop there?I don?t blame them for my problem with alcohol, but why don?t they feel what I feel right now? They?re still out there every night, drinking and partying?not a care in the world. Here I am on the verge of a nervous break down because I feel like I can?t stop. Do they have a problem? Maybe they know they can stop, where as me?I?m having a really hard time.

I am miserable right now.

[Lavande]

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Hi there Crazy,
I've only been here a couple of weeks myself but have found a lot of comfort and support. I check in several times a day for a dose of courage. It really helps! I choose to not cold turkey my wine habit but to begin my moderating. First I had to figure out exactly how much I was drinking, then make a plan to slowly but consistently decrease my intake. Success so far and I feel so much better. I'm happy with my progress and will stick to my plan!
Wishing you the best on your own journey.
Lavande

[crazyforwine]

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lavande,

I have tapered a couple of times and it worked fairly well. I always went back to drinking, but not because of the tapering situation, I'd just go back for no good reason after a few days AF. I may try that again tonight, I just don't have the courage to go cold turkey. Have my stash of melatonin and maybe I'll even get some sleep! Thank you for your kind thoughts.

crazy