After 3 days of discussions, my boyfriend is considering leaving me. He told his daughter the story who told him to leave me since I have "baggage". My son won't let him near my house, he'll call the cops again. I'm heartbroken. I have been looking online to get some help and found this place. So, here's the thing. I am really taking some inventory at myself. However, at this point, my boyfriend is totally sure this is all my sons fault. I was hoping to discuss with him how we both need to get away from this stuff and get AF. He said he needs to think about us, about things. Sheesh. If I lost him too, what about me? I'm going to be totally lost. I love him dearly, I don't want to lose him too. I have so many questions in my head. I do know this though. I know it is time to stop numbing myself. I'm no spring chicken anymore and it is hurting me in more ways I can count. But I don't even know if I can have this relationship, have fun, etc. without the drink. I don't know anything anymore.
I don't know what I even am asking for from folks here. Not sympathy...maybe a pat on the back that all will be ok? (my other problem is the anxiety of not know what will happen)...in some ways I wish it were a week ago and I could change what happened. In other ways, I knew it was bound to happen. Man, I know I feel totally lost. I know I love this man (he really is a good man). I can't have this man and my son together (ever now). I know I have to get away from the bottle. Ugh. Well, for who ever had the time to read this long thing here, I thank you for your time.
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