This is my first post, just signed up today so I thought I'd say something.
I came upon this site by chance and its amazing. So supportive and full of great people. So many stories that relate to me, it seriously made me cry.
I know I've always had an addictive personality and alcohol has always been a problem. That has really escalated iver the past few years and its had a devestating effect on my life..... my health, relationships, self esteem...EVERYTHING.
Things got worse 6 months ago..... I got married, (not that thats bad), and moved to a new city in Australia. As I had no job up here and knew noone I had way too much time on my hands and, after my wife went to work, more times than not headed to the liquor store. I was deceptive, .... I've done alot of things i hate myself for. So many times I've hidden bottles etc to keep the buzz going. I've let a beautiful person, (my wife), down and I hate myself for that.
The last 3 weeks have been horrible. I just.... need AL and lots of it.
Anyway ......day 1 is today. 5 PM and I'm sitting here on the couch feeling sick and just wanting a drink but this forum has inspired me as to what is possible.
Finally got a job as well, (not easy these days), starting in 2 days so I want to feel non-toxic for it. Lack of time on my own will really help.
This is a great site and you're all fabulous brave people going through a huge struggle.
I think I found this site for a reason and to me its a real blessing.
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