So I am going to tell myself this: yes, it's going to be painful, but I can go without sleep for a couple of nights. It's no worse than fitful sleep after drinking. The sweats are a GOOD thing and indicate my body is getting better. I CAN take care of myself today: drink lots of water with lemon, eat something I really love (sushi), and try to look ahead to some good days. I EXPECT I will feel anxious and paranoid, because I always do. This is not related to my real life, it is only the withdrawal talking. It will pass and I will feel optimisitic again. In a couple of days I will get back to running.
If anyone has some words of encouragement, please send them my way. I could put my head down on my desk right now and sleep, wish I'd felt that way at 2 am. I am really at the end of my rope!
Crazy and crazed
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