I'm trying hard to make changes, wine is my downfall too.
I started drinking a glass here and there when I found out my then 17 yr old was pg in her 12th Grade and would graduate 9 months pg. What started as a simple relaxation 9 years ago has progressed into nightly bottle/s and I'm so tired of beating myself up over it each day. Have tried over the past 2 years to quit and always ended up back at it ... Now I am 30 days minus one slip weeks ago. My husband of 31 years has stopped also, he's the one who encouraged me to try for 30 days.
Recently I attended a 10 days Curling Brier in Calgary which involves alot of partying but managed to stay AF with the help of another non-drinking person and Virgin Ceasers.
Friday was tough, two of my best friends (my long time drinking buddies) called me for lunch. They had no idea that I have been AF ... they told me they had ordered my a 1/2 Litre of wine & asked if that was ok? I told them "no" to cancel the order and that I'd meet them in afew minutes.
I was so nervous driving, thinking I should have just declined the invitation. But I went and after afew questions and nervous energy, I ordered that Virgin Ceaser, told them to have what they liked and we carried on. It seemed as awkward for them as for me, these are my best friends for over 25 yrs. After lunch back to my friends for more conversation and drinks, I had coke.
Later meeting up with our husbands for dinner (more questions & virgin ceasers) & after I suggested we go to a lounge for an after dinner drink just because everyone was acting abit strange so I just thought I'd throw it out there. We were home sober by 9:30 pm.
Dh had alittle more trouble handling the social situation as it was his first in 28 days ... When does a person start to feel normal in these situations. I really forced myself to be happy and try to be myself but inside it was uncomfortable. Waking up today sober was so worth any of the ill emotions ...
I find that I still don't feel great, headaches, really sleepy, grumpy, especially with my honey, who is trying to be so supportive and quitting to help me. I've just finished reading the book by Chris Prentiss and really enjoyed it. I take what I like and leave the rest from AA. I'm trying, one day at a time.
Couldn't get on here for 4 or so days because of my computer but I'm happy to be back as I missed the support! Welcome to all newcomers ....
:bye:
I started drinking a glass here and there when I found out my then 17 yr old was pg in her 12th Grade and would graduate 9 months pg. What started as a simple relaxation 9 years ago has progressed into nightly bottle/s and I'm so tired of beating myself up over it each day. Have tried over the past 2 years to quit and always ended up back at it ... Now I am 30 days minus one slip weeks ago. My husband of 31 years has stopped also, he's the one who encouraged me to try for 30 days.
Recently I attended a 10 days Curling Brier in Calgary which involves alot of partying but managed to stay AF with the help of another non-drinking person and Virgin Ceasers.
Friday was tough, two of my best friends (my long time drinking buddies) called me for lunch. They had no idea that I have been AF ... they told me they had ordered my a 1/2 Litre of wine & asked if that was ok? I told them "no" to cancel the order and that I'd meet them in afew minutes.
I was so nervous driving, thinking I should have just declined the invitation. But I went and after afew questions and nervous energy, I ordered that Virgin Ceaser, told them to have what they liked and we carried on. It seemed as awkward for them as for me, these are my best friends for over 25 yrs. After lunch back to my friends for more conversation and drinks, I had coke.
Later meeting up with our husbands for dinner (more questions & virgin ceasers) & after I suggested we go to a lounge for an after dinner drink just because everyone was acting abit strange so I just thought I'd throw it out there. We were home sober by 9:30 pm.
Dh had alittle more trouble handling the social situation as it was his first in 28 days ... When does a person start to feel normal in these situations. I really forced myself to be happy and try to be myself but inside it was uncomfortable. Waking up today sober was so worth any of the ill emotions ...
I find that I still don't feel great, headaches, really sleepy, grumpy, especially with my honey, who is trying to be so supportive and quitting to help me. I've just finished reading the book by Chris Prentiss and really enjoyed it. I take what I like and leave the rest from AA. I'm trying, one day at a time.
Couldn't get on here for 4 or so days because of my computer but I'm happy to be back as I missed the support! Welcome to all newcomers ....
:bye:
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